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I never realised how fecking stupid I could be!
Grrr... I deserve punishing... I need to punish myself, but can I afford to throw 27 days down the drain? I don't know. Maybe I should just take the pills and get it over and done with.
I don't know. I thought I was getting closer to God. Maybe I am. Then why was I so fecking stupid. I can't believe I did that.
I'm really hating myself at the moment!
Grrr... I deserve punishing... I need to punish myself, but can I afford to throw 27 days down the drain? I don't know. Maybe I should just take the pills and get it over and done with.
I don't know. I thought I was getting closer to God. Maybe I am. Then why was I so fecking stupid. I can't believe I did that.
I'm really hating myself at the moment!