Oct 13, 2005 23:31
Granted that our lives are filled with sadness
then they must have happiness too. The eternal balance that keeps these bodies living. Just happy enough. Until you're on the upswing. Then it's fucking amazing.
Maintain my ever-changing point of view, stick to the moving target. Love one and then another, and then fall back in line. Kisses on the forehead make me cringe. Don't care that much about me. Blek.
My room smells like the smoke that never entered here and I count the times I think of quitting school. I'm up to one million, six hundred and twenty three.
I'm constantly putting myself in positions that make the minivaners stare. I'm always sitting on the ground, or standing on the tallest thing that I can find. It helps me keep perspective. Reminds me that there are better ways to see things than the way that most people do.
And the people that I love sit with me. And that sums up why I love them. Most of them don't even question anymore.
And its moments like that, when my heart feels full, that makes me glad I'm on the upswing.