grrrr, fucking b-days
my b-day is almost here and like 20 ppl want to hang out this weekend and on my b-day, but im hanging out with jesse... i mean this is the first b-day i have ever had a b/f and i would like to spend it with him but i also want to spend it with my friends, now im not saying that i cant hang out with them all cuz i can, its just i would like to spend time with jesse and yeah not all my friends like each other and theres someone i want to hang out with but i cant, cuz yeah jesse dont like him and really dont like me talking to him. and that puts me in another dilema cuz i kinda have to choose jesse or adam. and I dont want to throw away an alomst 3 year friendship with adam b/c jesse dosent like him. Adam is my best guy friend in the world, we have been through it all. and we are still going through shit together, but no matter wat situation we have been put up agaianst we have work through it and kept our friendship. but then again i dont want to loose jesse, he makes me happy and he actually likes me for me. and i know adam is leaving in a month to go back to school and jesse's not, i mean jesse is going back to school to but its UNH. So yeah i really dont know wat to do cuz i dont want to loose either one, but i a feeling im gonna need to choose one or the another soon. grrrr i hate guys.... and this all has to happen around my b-day, grrrrr!