Bury your head...

[xxprettyxgirlxx]

It's been quite the while, but I always seem to have something better to do. Not to mention the fact that I just don't have the patience to take all of this time to write these stupid thoughts down that no one reads anyways

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[xxprettyxgirlxx]

People, I was having an awful day. I just love it how bad days are always count against you. Julie, I felt really alone that night, and Ali was the only person to help me through it. Seriously though, what I said in this entry was simply stating the fact that whenever I've had a horrible day recently, the only person to not hate me because I was being a bitch has been Ali C.

Yes, at the time, I did hate everyone...Not meaning you people in particular, but meaning something more along the lines of, "I hate people!" Which is actually something you and I used to constantly tell each other, even though we both knew we weren't talking about each other personally.

I know all of this was my own fault, but everyone doesn't have to keep rubbing it in my face. I am so sick and tired of being put down. I'm having plenty of other problems right now besides all of my once beloved friends now openly despize me. Julie, I was one of your closest friends, and how exactly everything fell apart I'm not even sure about.

I honestly don't know what else to say, because no one seems to care anymore. From now on, I'll just stay quiet and keep to myself. This way, you don't have to acknowledge my exsistence and I won't be yelled at every few seconds.

[ocean989]

we dont yell at u wen we ask u wats wrong ur a bitch 2 us and im sry if u feel like evry1s putting u down but id say u do the same 2 otha people as well as ur self and i always tried 2 b here 4 u and all u eva did was stab me in the bak and u kno it and u lied to me and neva told me the truth about anything and u told me things like johns a prude and i kno u did so obv u lie 2 me and ui cant denie that but if u think that lying 2 sum1 u call ur close friend is wat a friend is supposed 2 do ur really off and u need 2 learn that u can hurt ppl as much as they hurt you and im not tryin 2 b a bitch and i dont hate u but i get really annoyed wen i read stuff like that and wen u say i hate evry1 but 1 person u must b talkign bout the ppl uv been around lately which is partially us and u can never admit that were ur friends anymore and u act like we rnt so wat do u xpect if u think im being unfair i think u should take a long hard look at urself

[xxprettyxgirlxx]

Julie, you are yelling at me with this comment right now. Everyone has been putting me down, and yes, I get the fact that I deserve it, I'd just rather not hear it every three seconds. You were always there for me; I never denied that one. I'm relaly not sure when I stabbed you in the back. And you're bringing up the John thing? Well thank you very much for becoming good friends with my exboyfriend and talking about me with him. Because I almost appreciate that one...Once again, I know I can hurt people, and I know I have been; I've admitted to that a thousand times over and you know that. And if you deny that, then either you never really listened to me in the first place, or your just as much of a liar as I am. I know you aren't trying to be a bitch; I never said you were. I just said that I didn't need everyone screaming at me or leaving hostile comments on my live journal. I don't hate you either. Do you even remember when we would scream back and forth, "Wow, I hate people!" whether it was about friends that were annoying us or our parents or whoever??? Because honestly, I didn't mean you, or anyone else you're thinking of, when I said it in the entry! And besides all of that, I have barely been around any of you lately, and you know that. So how could I be thoroughly pissed off at people that I'm hardly ever around anymore??? EXACTLY!!! When did I not acknowledge you guys as friends? Because I don't remember ever doing that. All I said was that at the moment in time Ali C was the only person there for me. I wasn't putting other friends down; I was simply glorifying Ali! And you say I'm being unfair? How is that whenever I say I'm sorry or admit to something I;m just considered a "compulsive liar", but when I'm depressed and say things that I don't exactly mean everyone believes full heartedly??? How is that in the least bit fair???

[ocean989]

1st of all i neva said ur a compulsive liar and u kno that....2nd of all about the john thing i just wanted 2 show u how i kno that uv lied 2 me not 2 say anythign against u besides that and i can b friends w. him if i want and i dont even talk about u w. him/them...as much as u mgiht think i do i dont...but anyways im sry if i speak my mind and say things i think others should kno instead of not talking 2 them and just ignoring them like sum otha ppl but thats who i am...and u dont really acknowledge us anymore or atleast me i kno and ya u mgiht say hi but thats it we dont talk ro anything even if i try 2 b friendly but watever....