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im so tired but my eyes are fighting to stay open and i really dont know why... my minds just been playing tricks on me the past couple of days and ive been thinking quite alot ... i even wrote a poem... thats unusal for me ... well anyways it was really good... it explained alot ... i kinda mapped out whats happened to me in the duration of like two weeks...weirddd i know... i cant even explain whats goin through my mind right now .. thats what scares me ... nothing ever happened to me where i had to question my thinking .. i was always kinda right and completely trusting of myself .. but this time im kinda scared of the future a little bit .. i cant really explain why .. because i dont like to pour my heart out on this thing .. but ill just state that i think this vacation might actually be exactly what i needed to pick myself up again .. and feel some emotion again for the little things in life.. and actually cry again when i watch movies again ::sigh:: .. that didnt happen for quite a while .. i was emotionally dead...but the emotions are back and i cant explain my happiness for that either .. i was actually scared i was facing depression ...... well whatever enough about that ... i had fun last night at galatis watchin two games thati totally dont understand ... poker and basket ball .. but it was good to hang out with everyone again and ruin a guys night which me and nicole decided to crash, and then michelle came over today and we crusied around with my daddy in his car which me and michelle are in love with and listened to her 50 cent crap.. and i enjoyed it very much ... then we watched the notebookk. and she didnt cry !!! haha unbelieveable... the first time i saw that movie i almost died from crying so much... well ... i think im done for the night... goodnight everyone ... tms palm sunday ... if anyone cares .. and tm in church i get to make little crosses out of the palm cuz its impossible for me to sit throguh mass like a civil human being... .and then dinner at grandma geniesss hehe yes this should be good...k, bye <3
DEGRASSI <3
DEGRASSI <3