Nothing witty to say...
Today was so boring! I mean, I didn't do ANYTHING at all.. fought with Chuckie a little, but that is normal. Beth went out with Steeeve so I had no one to talk to! I was stuck here with Chuckie all alone, all day... grrr.
I finally decided to fix my hair/make-up at like 8:00 pm. I don't know why I did, Chuckie won't take me anywhere, and he really didn't even notice. Bah... humbug..
I have just felt so sad today, totally emo... *sigh* I really don't know what the problem is.. maybe I should just get crunk and forget about my worries for the time being. I'm just so sick of the same thing everyday. Guess that's like tho... sometimes I just wanna run away... but then I bet I'd get to where I was going and still feel the same. Basically I'm trapped in my own mind... that's fucked up. Maybe I should just get put back on my meds... then I will still be in the same situation, I would just stop caring. Anything is better than the way I feel now... it sucks that I just can't be happy... I can't just force myself to look on the bright side, can't seem to find the silver lining in the clouds. It's fucked up, but sometimes I wish I would just go to sleep and not wake up again.. what is the point in waking up if I'm just gonna be miserable? Ahh fuck it.. I'm more upset now than I was before I started writing!
I thought journals were suppost to help you get rid of bad ju ju... someone lied to me! What else is new? I just want my happily ever after so I can close the damn book already... papercuts really sting...
I finally decided to fix my hair/make-up at like 8:00 pm. I don't know why I did, Chuckie won't take me anywhere, and he really didn't even notice. Bah... humbug..
I have just felt so sad today, totally emo... *sigh* I really don't know what the problem is.. maybe I should just get crunk and forget about my worries for the time being. I'm just so sick of the same thing everyday. Guess that's like tho... sometimes I just wanna run away... but then I bet I'd get to where I was going and still feel the same. Basically I'm trapped in my own mind... that's fucked up. Maybe I should just get put back on my meds... then I will still be in the same situation, I would just stop caring. Anything is better than the way I feel now... it sucks that I just can't be happy... I can't just force myself to look on the bright side, can't seem to find the silver lining in the clouds. It's fucked up, but sometimes I wish I would just go to sleep and not wake up again.. what is the point in waking up if I'm just gonna be miserable? Ahh fuck it.. I'm more upset now than I was before I started writing!
I thought journals were suppost to help you get rid of bad ju ju... someone lied to me! What else is new? I just want my happily ever after so I can close the damn book already... papercuts really sting...