britt, random... i know. i heard all types of shit the pass couple of days. ive been trying to get a hold of you and find out what rehabiltaion center ure at. i have some court matters to take care of in dec. i hope the judge is leanent im looking at about 18 months.so yeah im kinda going out on pure luck and faith that you get this. i thought after everthing thats happened i would be doin better, but honestly its gettin worse, and not just drugz life. you were everthing to me and i know it might have seemed like we used eachother as a crutch in the past,or werent a healthy couple but fuck that remember how happy we were toghter.thats real you cant fake shit like that. but now everthings so messed up,i mean im in some dudes basement. doin somthing that already killed me once, talking to you through a old account knowing (ill never see again). im swallowing my pride saying all these things but i dont think im going to make it. or mabey i just dont want to make it, not with out you.everthing thats happend has been completly my fault all these dumb decions, everything your going through is my fault. its alot of guilt and i wish i could take all your pain, you DONT deserve it when i first met you, you were clean, you were doing good. and i know deep inside your pissed at me for everthing that has transpired, and if i never told you before im sorry. hope you forgive me i still love you... and still promise
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