Cuz I'm Mr. Brightside..
All I can say, is neglect is becoming one of my greatest attributes. I never update anymore....I know you all care, soo much. Anyway..
Things have been pretty good. Besides all the stress from work, and well, not work..and yea. Bowling is like all the time, but it's fun so I don't mind. Being on break really spoiled me and Jon, and now we barely even get to see each other during the week..talk about not cool. Once bowling ends though it should be different..I hope. I miss him.
Weds. will be our 4 month..<3
I couldn't be happier when it comes to that.
I've really been turning over a new leaf for myself, or so I think. I've just been wanting to stop being lazy, cuz I've finally realized, being lazy gets you no where. And I decided what I want to do with my life...or so I think. I want to be a parallegal(sp). And a bartender of course. That's exactly what Allison does...so this way I can talk to her about it and see what it's really like...I've been meaning to call her back. I decided Allison is my role model....yup.
Jon bought me the Killers cd yesturday..it's gooooood. Tehe.
I've been really distant from people lately..I'm just trying to stick by the closest. Of course Jon..and always Martin. I've been holding my grounds with ms. Julz...we are totally on the same page, hence why I love the girl to death. And there's of course Tara, my sister for life.
That reminds me, I keep thinking about how upset I am that Tara moved. I mean ok like get over it, it was a year and a half ago, but you know what....IT FUCKIN HURTS HAVING YOUR BEST FRIEND MOVE 4 TOWNS AWAY AND BARELY EVER BE ABLE TO SEE THEM!! Or for that fact, talk to them. I would be sooo much happier if she still lived around the block, and if we were still connected at the hip...and if we did still have all of our "talks." I really do miss her, and I can't do anything about it. The worst part is, is that we both have completely seperate, and completely busy lives....it just sucks. I mean I just wish, soo much that she would move back....
Sometimes I am..too alone. And it hurts.
Yea, I just thought of everything today....and yea, some of that wasn't so good.
I'm so sick of being all like emo.....but sometimes shit just bothers you..
Oh yea, and how could I forget......I haven't talked to Roman since like break, when he said he was gunna come down. Never even called me..guess I lost another friend..what did I do this time??
yup...goodnight.
*oPeN uP mY eAgEr EyEs*