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has anyone ever seen "The Butterfly Effect"?
Ever wonder if you hadn't been born how things would go for the people you've had a negatve effect on in your life?
i wonder that now...i know i've hurt people..i wonder if i hadn't been born..if he would have met a sweet girl..he would be happy..i'de love to see him smile.
we can't change what we are..i'm trying to accept that..i don't like who i've grown to become..i wonder if my path to growth had have been different if i would have been another person.
i'm not saying everyone i've ever met has been negative..i've had some verry positive people in my life..i keep those people close to me..in hopes to grow from them.
but my childhood was so negative..i raised myself..and i think that was the biggest impact in my life..everyone should have a happy childhood memory..mine are filled with memories of my sisters and i..i don't see my parents..i remember alot of the times spent with the neighborhood kids..or my grandparents.
i know my parents are trying now..but what what i've learned from is my childhood that's one of the most important times for a childs growth..and all i've learned was to give up on people..to abondon the only person i love and i know loves me..i don't want to get left behind by him...i've grown to be so scared of life.
it's hard to make changes when the only way you know how to be is yourself.
just a thought.
Ever wonder if you hadn't been born how things would go for the people you've had a negatve effect on in your life?
i wonder that now...i know i've hurt people..i wonder if i hadn't been born..if he would have met a sweet girl..he would be happy..i'de love to see him smile.
we can't change what we are..i'm trying to accept that..i don't like who i've grown to become..i wonder if my path to growth had have been different if i would have been another person.
i'm not saying everyone i've ever met has been negative..i've had some verry positive people in my life..i keep those people close to me..in hopes to grow from them.
but my childhood was so negative..i raised myself..and i think that was the biggest impact in my life..everyone should have a happy childhood memory..mine are filled with memories of my sisters and i..i don't see my parents..i remember alot of the times spent with the neighborhood kids..or my grandparents.
i know my parents are trying now..but what what i've learned from is my childhood that's one of the most important times for a childs growth..and all i've learned was to give up on people..to abondon the only person i love and i know loves me..i don't want to get left behind by him...i've grown to be so scared of life.
it's hard to make changes when the only way you know how to be is yourself.
just a thought.