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k so like Josh broke up with me Thursday afternoon...um...i cryed pretty much all night...
only slept about an hour and a half....havn't eaten in what is now 3 days...trying to move on...he doesnt want me to..but oh well i also don't wannna not be his GF...but that's not happening now is it?
I'm in Bako right now..i'm thinking about moving back home...being at my aunt and uncles house is like torture..Josh lives right down the street...well if i do move it wont be till the end of August....i really feel like crap right now...i wish he never did this...i hate it...it feels like i can't do anything right...and i'm so confused...the last night i spent with him he was laying on top of me and looked in my eyes and said "promise me you'll never leave me" and then POOF he breaks up with me...i guess i can kinda say i saw that one coming just bc he seemed so distant..but in some stupid way i didn't think it would EVER happen...i thought i was going to die with this boy...this has to be the hardest thing i've ever had to deal with in my life....that's so pathetic...someone like...remove my brain so i don't have to think about him anymore...
Well i'll be going back home to Salinas in about an hour...so like yah...hope to see everyone i miss...also i'm going camping like next weekend...so that should be fun?...yah i'm gunna complain the entire time ha.
Ooh and me and Mat got to talking lastnight..it actually went good? no arguing or being mean...it was weird...i guess we might be roomies ha..Yah LA!I'm so going to get shot.
k well....i gotta finish getting ready.
ALSO!
Sorrrrry for being lame Robert and forgeting your Birthday till like an hour too late...i suck at life...but i hope your Bday was fun and stuff...and i hope you got laid?duh.
only slept about an hour and a half....havn't eaten in what is now 3 days...trying to move on...he doesnt want me to..but oh well i also don't wannna not be his GF...but that's not happening now is it?
I'm in Bako right now..i'm thinking about moving back home...being at my aunt and uncles house is like torture..Josh lives right down the street...well if i do move it wont be till the end of August....i really feel like crap right now...i wish he never did this...i hate it...it feels like i can't do anything right...and i'm so confused...the last night i spent with him he was laying on top of me and looked in my eyes and said "promise me you'll never leave me" and then POOF he breaks up with me...i guess i can kinda say i saw that one coming just bc he seemed so distant..but in some stupid way i didn't think it would EVER happen...i thought i was going to die with this boy...this has to be the hardest thing i've ever had to deal with in my life....that's so pathetic...someone like...remove my brain so i don't have to think about him anymore...
Well i'll be going back home to Salinas in about an hour...so like yah...hope to see everyone i miss...also i'm going camping like next weekend...so that should be fun?...yah i'm gunna complain the entire time ha.
Ooh and me and Mat got to talking lastnight..it actually went good? no arguing or being mean...it was weird...i guess we might be roomies ha..Yah LA!I'm so going to get shot.
k well....i gotta finish getting ready.
ALSO!
Sorrrrry for being lame Robert and forgeting your Birthday till like an hour too late...i suck at life...but i hope your Bday was fun and stuff...and i hope you got laid?duh.