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I can't tell if I am finally realizing or finally acknowledging that I probably won't change the world in any significant way. And I can't tell if that even matters to me, or if I was just taught at some point that it should. This is literally all that I can think about lately. Yeah. Shit sucks.
Job hunt has been on for 2 months with 4 interviews and no results. I'm not Qualified for shit. I just know that eventually someone will take a chance on me.
Moved in with Ralph and thats pretty weird. I'm having a very strange reaction to being with someone who is trying to make me better. My reaction is generally to argue invalid and irrelevant points in a highly immature fashion...to get out of the "attack." The "attack" is generally Ralph reminding me to pay a bill that I complain about forgetting about, or asking Questions regarding the next 6 months of our lives.
Co-habitating is weirder than I thought itd be. And I totally hate being called out on my shit all the time and not buying new shoes because I know that WE, not just I, have a trip we're saving for. Its so much easier to be responsible when you have to deal with disappointing someone whom you care about nearly as much as you care about yourself. But really. I am highly turned off by people who I suspect won't call me out on my shit. And there's women for you.
Job hunt has been on for 2 months with 4 interviews and no results. I'm not Qualified for shit. I just know that eventually someone will take a chance on me.
Moved in with Ralph and thats pretty weird. I'm having a very strange reaction to being with someone who is trying to make me better. My reaction is generally to argue invalid and irrelevant points in a highly immature fashion...to get out of the "attack." The "attack" is generally Ralph reminding me to pay a bill that I complain about forgetting about, or asking Questions regarding the next 6 months of our lives.
Co-habitating is weirder than I thought itd be. And I totally hate being called out on my shit all the time and not buying new shoes because I know that WE, not just I, have a trip we're saving for. Its so much easier to be responsible when you have to deal with disappointing someone whom you care about nearly as much as you care about yourself. But really. I am highly turned off by people who I suspect won't call me out on my shit. And there's women for you.