demolition man/i think the world just may be out to get me.

[xxphoenix]

so.
i.i'm not going to stop writing in here no matter what, though i may make it friends only. comment to be added & i'll consider adding you, once the change is made (assuming it is).
ii.even if i decide against that, i'll be making my emotional/destructive/life-altering entries friends-only. if you want a piece of the action, you might be able to

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[hecatelila]

i never want to see you dead, that would do more to me than you think, that would make me think, fuck if she cant survive this how the fuck can i? i need to to be alive

[xxphoenix]

lisa...it's fucking hard. it is SO fucking hard & every time i fuck up, with omar, ben, etc. i just feel more & more like shit. except: it doesn't go away after they forgive me, it stays there & eats away at me. i can't shake off anything i've done wrong, & it just multiplies & gets worse every time i do something wrong.

i am not worth this.
life, is not worth this.

[hecatelila]

i know its fucking hard i do, but youre worth it in my eyes

[xxphoenix]

you seem to be one of the few who thinks so.

[hecatelila]

then you have a few