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Mercury is in retrograde.
Maybe that's why.
I've found myself starting to believe more and more in astrology.
Just because of some of the things that it's helped me to realize about myself.
Plus, I don't believe in coincidences. I believe people are conceived and born at the exact date and time they were supposed to be.
I'm not sure how that governs people's traits.. But a lot of the horoscopes have been pretty spot on for me.
I feel like I was told to suppress my feelings as a child.
Told to not ask questions and just take it as it is.
I think that's shaped me as an adult and I don't like that.
I have feelings. I love. I laugh. I cry. I feel.
I hate that my feelings were not acknowledged.
I was told to suck up my sadness. To calm down with my joy.
I was taunted about my emotions.
I suppressed them
I ate them
As I get older, I'm learning to embrace them.
I'm learning to create names for them: frustrated, ecstatic, depressed, unbelievably joyful.
I guess my childhood messed me up more than I realized.
I don't blame anyone. Everything happens for a reason, and now I'm realizing all of these feelings that I have, and I love them! I love feeling. Feelings make me feel alive.
I used to just go through the motions.
Maybe that's why.
I've found myself starting to believe more and more in astrology.
Just because of some of the things that it's helped me to realize about myself.
Plus, I don't believe in coincidences. I believe people are conceived and born at the exact date and time they were supposed to be.
I'm not sure how that governs people's traits.. But a lot of the horoscopes have been pretty spot on for me.
I feel like I was told to suppress my feelings as a child.
Told to not ask questions and just take it as it is.
I think that's shaped me as an adult and I don't like that.
I have feelings. I love. I laugh. I cry. I feel.
I hate that my feelings were not acknowledged.
I was told to suck up my sadness. To calm down with my joy.
I was taunted about my emotions.
I suppressed them
I ate them
As I get older, I'm learning to embrace them.
I'm learning to create names for them: frustrated, ecstatic, depressed, unbelievably joyful.
I guess my childhood messed me up more than I realized.
I don't blame anyone. Everything happens for a reason, and now I'm realizing all of these feelings that I have, and I love them! I love feeling. Feelings make me feel alive.
I used to just go through the motions.