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so im goin to appologize before i even start.. wait.. appologize isnt even the word.. i just want to say that dont get me wrong when i write this. i am sooooooooo happy for my friends! they deserve all of this and they deserve to be happy.. and again.. i am SOOOO happy for them..
its just so hard.. i want it.. and i see ppl.. and i wonder when that can finally happen to me.. like i want to be the one with a good story to tell people and have a person in my life that makes it complete. but.. i honeslty dont think that will ever happen.. yes ive had ppl that ive thought ok maybe? but they ALL fell through. people make fun of me when i say " its not in the cards".. but when u think about it.. im kinda right.. till i can proove myself wrong... i consider myself right on that. I just finally want to be happy. Im sick and tired of being jealous of ppl and wanting wat other ppl have beacuse thats not right.. i want my own.. and yea i kno the easiest thing to do is to just 4get about guys all 2gether but when you actually think about it.. its one of the hardest things to do because tehy are alllll around you.
i look back over the years.. and yes.. ive made my share of mistakes.. but have they been that bad that i cant be happy?
please some1.. answer me that :-/