love

[xxonlyyouxx]

"you are so amazing. every time i see you its an explosion going off. everybody else gets vaporized and disappears and the only thing that keeps me from getting knocked out is the joy i get from seeing you. i am so puzzled by your ambiance. so gleeful od your childish mannerisms. so awe ispired by your inert being. I am transfixed by the way you sit in silence, looking so beautifully tragic. i cling to every word you say, and bless every chance i have to hear your voice. the jokes that make us laugh, and the tears that make us sad, the looks that excite me, the smiles that make us happy. i share so much for the first time, and it's all in this year alone because of you. each day i am so thankful for my blessings. i don't even take advantage of my senses. My eyes to see you, my ears to hear you, my touch to kiss you. I'm glad i have arms to hold you in and that i have a heart to love you with. what if all my senses left me? if you just told me you'd be with me then i think i would manage. Life in the dark is brighter than sunshine if it's with you.  Sometimes that feeling in my stomach comes back. I don't mind it anymore though. It doesn't hurt. It doesn't feel bad. It always goes away when I am with you. Sometimes i get down on myself, and hate it. I've realized now that it is okay to be sad sometimes. Whenever something really bad happens to me i always find myself  thinking of you. When my parents and I fight, i only want to talk to you. I owe you my heart and soul Becky. I really do. All of the things I have been through that have hurt me don't matter anymore. I don't do drugs anymore, i don't feel so apathetic anymore. you saved me Becky, you really did. I wish i could melt into you. You saved me. You are a hero, a star, a beauty, a magician, a romantic, a healer, a teacher, a maniac, an artist, a girl, a love, my HERO. thoughts fly through my head and the world stands still. You're endless music and ceaseless beauty, and safe comforting love. Those eyes...those eyes. I could go on forever but it'd never be enough. All I can say is I love you. I will always be HERE for you, and i will always take care of you. You know i'll always be thinking of you."

oh how i love reminicing those words. no one else could ever speak them the way you did.
you are missed. <3