yeuuh.
Well, my last entry I have to admit was a little bit angry.
I don't know, it was only a few days after I found out what happened to Patrick, and I guess I was still really angry about that whole thing.
School starts in about 2 weeks. It sucks, but in a way I am kind of looking forward to it.
My goal this next school year is to make new friends, or become closer to my old ones. I want to make friends that I can actually keep in my life. I want friends that will be there for me till the end..friends I will graduate with, and stuff like that.
I have been thinking about what I want to be, and what I want to do when highschool is over. It isn't going to be that much longer, and I'm gone. I want to pursue my love for music, but ever since I started dancing again, I was reminded of how much I loved it. I am also really interested in fashion design alsooo. ugh i don't know.
Ever sine Patrick has been gone, things have been really different for me, and my family too; probably because of the fact that he was like family to mine.
Ever since I met him, I made the mistake of drifting away from some of my closest friends, probably because I thought that he was always going to be there. But now that he isn't even here, I don't really have anybody.
I always attempt to meet new people and make new friends, but that has never been easy for me, and it doesn't seem to be working all that well.
Being alone alot of the time eventually starts to get to you, and to be honest I am not very happy right now.
I miss Patrick more than anything, and on top of that, I really miss my friends. My friends were always, ALWAYS, there for me no matter what. If it wasn't for them, these past two years wouldn't have been anything special at all. And thanks to those few people, I found Patrick. And for a while now, I have been completely convinced that he is the love of my life.
Yes, it is possible to fall in love in highschool. Either it happens, or it doesn't. Either way, everyone finds that one person that is for them. No matter what age, or where it happens..it is always bound to happen.
This next year is going to be really hard, but I am almost possitive that me and him will make it work. We always make it work. I know I am willing to go through anything for him, and that is why I am going through this. I know there are so many things to experience in life, but I don't want to experience them without him. Everything is so dusty and grey without him around. Whenever he was around everything was so bright and colorful. It was even that way for other people, because I don't know a single person that hasn't smiled because of him. He's the sunshine after to rain for me.
I know he will be back one day. I just wish there was someone, even if it's just one person, to be there for me right now.
summer 06' has probably been the weirdest summer I have yet to experience.
<3
I don't know, it was only a few days after I found out what happened to Patrick, and I guess I was still really angry about that whole thing.
School starts in about 2 weeks. It sucks, but in a way I am kind of looking forward to it.
My goal this next school year is to make new friends, or become closer to my old ones. I want to make friends that I can actually keep in my life. I want friends that will be there for me till the end..friends I will graduate with, and stuff like that.
I have been thinking about what I want to be, and what I want to do when highschool is over. It isn't going to be that much longer, and I'm gone. I want to pursue my love for music, but ever since I started dancing again, I was reminded of how much I loved it. I am also really interested in fashion design alsooo. ugh i don't know.
Ever sine Patrick has been gone, things have been really different for me, and my family too; probably because of the fact that he was like family to mine.
Ever since I met him, I made the mistake of drifting away from some of my closest friends, probably because I thought that he was always going to be there. But now that he isn't even here, I don't really have anybody.
I always attempt to meet new people and make new friends, but that has never been easy for me, and it doesn't seem to be working all that well.
Being alone alot of the time eventually starts to get to you, and to be honest I am not very happy right now.
I miss Patrick more than anything, and on top of that, I really miss my friends. My friends were always, ALWAYS, there for me no matter what. If it wasn't for them, these past two years wouldn't have been anything special at all. And thanks to those few people, I found Patrick. And for a while now, I have been completely convinced that he is the love of my life.
Yes, it is possible to fall in love in highschool. Either it happens, or it doesn't. Either way, everyone finds that one person that is for them. No matter what age, or where it happens..it is always bound to happen.
This next year is going to be really hard, but I am almost possitive that me and him will make it work. We always make it work. I know I am willing to go through anything for him, and that is why I am going through this. I know there are so many things to experience in life, but I don't want to experience them without him. Everything is so dusty and grey without him around. Whenever he was around everything was so bright and colorful. It was even that way for other people, because I don't know a single person that hasn't smiled because of him. He's the sunshine after to rain for me.
I know he will be back one day. I just wish there was someone, even if it's just one person, to be there for me right now.
summer 06' has probably been the weirdest summer I have yet to experience.
<3