just dont let me fall asleep, feeling empty again.

[xxonlyxmexx]

i  hate this feeling.

i hate feeling lonely. somethings wrong and i know it. but... i dont know if i can handle something like this. this is something i havent dealt with for a while.

i know something is wrong. i hate knowing late at night that i did something wrong or made someone unhappy. or most of all, made myself unhappy.

am i happy or unhappy? i can be happy but now, i feel unhappy cuz maybe youre just oblivious to this ordeal. why is it that everytime something bad happens, youre so oblivious to it?

i want fucking sympathy. why is it that everytime i cry, youre not there? youre never there to support me when i need you most but im there for you. i need you to be here for me. i want you to actually be what youre supposed to be. i dont want to be just a "friend" to you, and yet you make me feel like i am still just a friend.

i want to be your lover, your best friend, your girlfriend.

why cant you talk to me with some sort of kindness in your voice? a voice that calms me, a voice that makes me feel safe and warm, a voice that i can get butterflies to, a voice that i can call my own.

i want to feel loved and i want to know that i am loved. i want to know that im wanted and needed.

i want you to at least make the ground i walk on worshipped.

i dont want this to end. but if it comes to it, theres nothing else i can do.

"tell me why i feel so alone, cause i need to know whom do i own."