vent time!!!
haha venting time!!!
early this morning, i got really pissed off. like no other to the point where i left early. i spent the night at a friends last night with a bunch of people. so last night doesnt help this morning either. last night, caley and i got into a fight cuz she ditched me and so i ditched her cuz i was like "wtf? okie. since youre ditching me, ill just leave." so i left caley with amanda, her boyfriend, and mike with kayla, megan, and emily.
so then later on in the night we hung out with brett, mike, and ryan. not a big deal. but its a big deal when ryan is constantly all over emily. then mike with kayla, and bretty with megan. im pretty much the 4th wheel all the time.
but no. it bothered me last night that he was all over emily last night because when i was at kayla's party sunday night, me and ryan made out and shit. i mean, a kiss is a kiss. didnt mean anything to me. but its just... i felt used. cuz he was drunk i was drunk, but i remember. i didnt want to make out anymore nor did i want him trying to get into my pants, so i left him. as i left, he was like "could you call becca to my tent please?"
so what does that mean to me? it means that he's just being a sick jerk, trying to find a piece of ass. its not the kissing that hurt me, it was the fact that i had to be "one" of the girls and that i didnt mean anything. yea. hard to explain why that bothered me so much.
so then this morning, ryan and emily were talking while everyone was asleep. im not a deep sleeper, so i will hear conversations. i at least have respect and know that if im talking to a boy i like, id go somewhere else to talk. not where everyone is sleeping at. so i was grumpy this morning and i was like "ryan! SHUT THE FUCK UP!" i was mean.
enough of that.
now whats going on my head right now. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! MY EAR HURTS!!!
i just gauged (the correct term would be stretched but gauge just sounds right to me.) my ear bigger. it hurt like a mother fucker. i actually had to lubricate it this time cuz it hurt so bad. and like i almost passed out cuz it hurt so bad too. so like it still hurts and i cant take this pain. its horrible!!! this is the worst one by far. but the whole time doing it, i was thinking to myself, "beauty is pain. and plus! this will be last time doing it! so just finish it and youll be fine!!!"
so... im in alot of pain right now, but its worth it in the end. ^_^ but yea.
oh yea. spring break is now officially over. *teardrop* no more partying for me!!!
early this morning, i got really pissed off. like no other to the point where i left early. i spent the night at a friends last night with a bunch of people. so last night doesnt help this morning either. last night, caley and i got into a fight cuz she ditched me and so i ditched her cuz i was like "wtf? okie. since youre ditching me, ill just leave." so i left caley with amanda, her boyfriend, and mike with kayla, megan, and emily.
so then later on in the night we hung out with brett, mike, and ryan. not a big deal. but its a big deal when ryan is constantly all over emily. then mike with kayla, and bretty with megan. im pretty much the 4th wheel all the time.
but no. it bothered me last night that he was all over emily last night because when i was at kayla's party sunday night, me and ryan made out and shit. i mean, a kiss is a kiss. didnt mean anything to me. but its just... i felt used. cuz he was drunk i was drunk, but i remember. i didnt want to make out anymore nor did i want him trying to get into my pants, so i left him. as i left, he was like "could you call becca to my tent please?"
so what does that mean to me? it means that he's just being a sick jerk, trying to find a piece of ass. its not the kissing that hurt me, it was the fact that i had to be "one" of the girls and that i didnt mean anything. yea. hard to explain why that bothered me so much.
so then this morning, ryan and emily were talking while everyone was asleep. im not a deep sleeper, so i will hear conversations. i at least have respect and know that if im talking to a boy i like, id go somewhere else to talk. not where everyone is sleeping at. so i was grumpy this morning and i was like "ryan! SHUT THE FUCK UP!" i was mean.
enough of that.
now whats going on my head right now. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! MY EAR HURTS!!!
i just gauged (the correct term would be stretched but gauge just sounds right to me.) my ear bigger. it hurt like a mother fucker. i actually had to lubricate it this time cuz it hurt so bad. and like i almost passed out cuz it hurt so bad too. so like it still hurts and i cant take this pain. its horrible!!! this is the worst one by far. but the whole time doing it, i was thinking to myself, "beauty is pain. and plus! this will be last time doing it! so just finish it and youll be fine!!!"
so... im in alot of pain right now, but its worth it in the end. ^_^ but yea.
oh yea. spring break is now officially over. *teardrop* no more partying for me!!!