tell me it was true, please
i really dont know what to do with myself...
so much of my day revolved around him it makes me sick and not having a car and having to be over there 24 7 didnt help much either.
i miss him already, just the comfort of being around him
i miss being able to have someone to hug just because i felt sad and a hug can always make me feel better.
i miss kisses on the forehead and warm arms wrapped around me tightly while falling asleep.
i miss feeling special to someone and feeling wanted for once in my life
i miss his crazy laugh and the way he smiled at me from across the room
i am going to miss all of his amazing friends i got to be close with i dont think i ever liked another girl as much as "domino" she is soo freaking amazing.
i miss the way he sang to his favorite songs so loud in the car
he says we can still be friends and i hope with all my heart that he isnt lying because i need the part of me that he holds to stay with me, i cant let that go yet i just cant
i hate that it will be a month before i can talk to him again
i hate that i let myself be so close to someone so fast
i hate that i busted all my walls down for him but he still has a few standing
i hate that i let in him so deep knowing i would most likely get hurt, but i didnt care the good times are
worth having bad ones.
i hate how he sees himself we all have bad in us but the only thing worth living for is the good.
i hate that i can see so much in his eyes that he keeps locked away.
i hate that i miss it so much and it hasnt even been a day
i hate the way that i want to cry but my body just wont let me
and i hate that my favorite movie is over at his house the one i watch to cheer me up the one ive seen 50 billion times and can quote everyline...and i cant watch it and i really want to
but most of all i hate the way i did not love him not like that even though i wanted to so badly and now all i feel is like ive lost is my best friend.
I HATE THAT I CANT DRIVE FOR TWO WEEKS, so now i am stuck in my house with nothing to do and no one to hang out with....and my medicene makes me feel depressed when i dont take it. :(
he'd probally hug me tight right now say something sweet and then say "LOCK IT UP!" and then i would laugh becuase no matter what he can always make me smile.
i just hope right now that what we had was true while it was happening and that i wasnt some annoying burden to him and that all he wanted was to get rid of me. i hope i was a good gf while it was going on, not too needy or annoying. all i ever wanted to be was a good gf. and someday a good wife.
and im going to end this with one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite movies... "love is passion, obsession, if you dont start with that what are you goiing to end up with? i say fall head over heels, find someone you can love like crazy and who will love you the same way back AND HOW DO YOU FIND HIM? forget your head and listen to your heart. run the risk. if you get hurt you'll come back because the truth is theres no sense in living your life without this. to make the journey and fall deeply in love. well, you havent lived life at all. BUT YOU HAVE TO TRY BECAUSE IF YOU HAVENT TRIED YOU HAVENT LIVED."
well im signing off now...and if anyone wants to hang out im most likley free but your going to have to pick me up cus i cant drive blah.
so much of my day revolved around him it makes me sick and not having a car and having to be over there 24 7 didnt help much either.
i miss him already, just the comfort of being around him
i miss being able to have someone to hug just because i felt sad and a hug can always make me feel better.
i miss kisses on the forehead and warm arms wrapped around me tightly while falling asleep.
i miss feeling special to someone and feeling wanted for once in my life
i miss his crazy laugh and the way he smiled at me from across the room
i am going to miss all of his amazing friends i got to be close with i dont think i ever liked another girl as much as "domino" she is soo freaking amazing.
i miss the way he sang to his favorite songs so loud in the car
he says we can still be friends and i hope with all my heart that he isnt lying because i need the part of me that he holds to stay with me, i cant let that go yet i just cant
i hate that it will be a month before i can talk to him again
i hate that i let myself be so close to someone so fast
i hate that i busted all my walls down for him but he still has a few standing
i hate that i let in him so deep knowing i would most likely get hurt, but i didnt care the good times are
worth having bad ones.
i hate how he sees himself we all have bad in us but the only thing worth living for is the good.
i hate that i can see so much in his eyes that he keeps locked away.
i hate that i miss it so much and it hasnt even been a day
i hate the way that i want to cry but my body just wont let me
and i hate that my favorite movie is over at his house the one i watch to cheer me up the one ive seen 50 billion times and can quote everyline...and i cant watch it and i really want to
but most of all i hate the way i did not love him not like that even though i wanted to so badly and now all i feel is like ive lost is my best friend.
I HATE THAT I CANT DRIVE FOR TWO WEEKS, so now i am stuck in my house with nothing to do and no one to hang out with....and my medicene makes me feel depressed when i dont take it. :(
he'd probally hug me tight right now say something sweet and then say "LOCK IT UP!" and then i would laugh becuase no matter what he can always make me smile.
i just hope right now that what we had was true while it was happening and that i wasnt some annoying burden to him and that all he wanted was to get rid of me. i hope i was a good gf while it was going on, not too needy or annoying. all i ever wanted to be was a good gf. and someday a good wife.
and im going to end this with one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite movies... "love is passion, obsession, if you dont start with that what are you goiing to end up with? i say fall head over heels, find someone you can love like crazy and who will love you the same way back AND HOW DO YOU FIND HIM? forget your head and listen to your heart. run the risk. if you get hurt you'll come back because the truth is theres no sense in living your life without this. to make the journey and fall deeply in love. well, you havent lived life at all. BUT YOU HAVE TO TRY BECAUSE IF YOU HAVENT TRIED YOU HAVENT LIVED."
well im signing off now...and if anyone wants to hang out im most likley free but your going to have to pick me up cus i cant drive blah.