TIME TO FRESH-EN UP!
Good Bye 2004. Hello 2005.
Well I had a fucking incredible ending to 2004 and a good start for 2005. I went to Geoffrey's Grandma's house, with Geoffrey, Doug, Micheal, and Robert. I met alott of really sweet people, it was fun. Micheal, Robert, and I all missed the count haha, we were too busy watching South Park =] So we all stayed up all night, than went to the Rose Parade, and than to Hollywood. I had a ton of fun. I got a new Metallica shirt and I am just in love with it, and the other one Jason gave me they are too KILLER! Hehe.. I got home at 1-1:30 and seriously just passed the fuck out on my bed, I woke-up at like 8:30PM. Yeahh I'm still dead though, haha. I hope everyone had a fun New Years / Eve just as I did. HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!!!!!! Well break is almost over, it sucks. Well at least I'll get to see people who I haven't seen for the past 3 weeks. =] So how was your New Years / Eve?
And now for the review of 2004......
Just like everyone else, I learned the meaning of a true friend. I've lost alot of friends due to a lack of trust, and how they turned out to be a completely different person than the one who was shown to me. I do have alott of good friends, who I would like to thank for being there. Knowing them is a pleasure of mine, and I wouldn't change them for the world. And for the people who helped me realize who my true friends actually were, thank you for fucking me over, and teaching me that lesson.
I'd like to send out an apology to everyone.........
I was a complete and total bitch to all of you at times, and I know I was. I've said some pretty harsh things to people, things I can't believe I've actually said. I changed for the worse, and I'm hopefully going to do way better this year. No I will do better this year, I'm going to be as nice as I use to be. I'm starting out all fresh. I don't want enemies, and I want to just have peace between myself and my enemy. I may not be a huge fan of them but hey theres no point for me to be a bitch and making the effort to hurt them, or to lower them down for my personal enjoyment. This won't mean we are friends but acquintances. I will respect you even if you don't feel you should respect me. I'm not trying to be one of those people who just want everyone to like or love them I just don't want to have shit with anyone.
I'm going to do better in school bcuz it seriously is pointless to just be lazy all the time and fail. The way I look at it now is the sooner you get it over with the sooner you won't have to deal with it. Plus I don't want to get grounded, I want to enjoy this year.
Yes I'll admit I don't have a fucking sky high self esteem, and yeah I think I'm fat, and ugly but hey its bcuz I know all of my flaws. And it makes me think that way. But to be honest with you all and I mean this in the kindest way possible is I REALLY DON'T GIVE A FUCK WHAT PEOPLE MAY THINK OF ME. Yeah I wear bandshirts, I listen to metal, and I enjoy to mosh, and headbang. And yeah I know I'm not the most goregous thing in the world, and I take some things seriously, but its the way I am and the way I'll be. A person's opinion of me won't change any of it. So if you think calling me something to hurt me will work, you are comepletely wrong. ok thats enough of this shittt.....
MY NEW YEARS RESOULTION ( S):
+ To become as nice as I use to be.
+ Create a peace between my enemies and I.
+ To lighten up.
+ To be a good girlfriend.
+ To stay clean of drugs.
+ To get good grades.
Last but not least............
+ To stay trustworthy of anyone.
Well thats the end of my long ass fucking post<3 I bet you're happy if you actually read it. <3333333333333
Love,
Brittany<333
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