Living On The HellMouth..
Hmmm were do i even start.. i dunno whats going on really i have been home for the past 4 night's doing nothing and i dunno maybe thats whats wrong with meeh but i dunno.. i think i'm kind of slipping again.. i miss Vy so much and she left today for hawiia =[ sniff sniff.. all i do is stay locked in my room the only time i leave is to go to volleyball wow big woop! and like when i do make plans my friends always flake or whatever.. or there to busy for meeh..or they don't feel like walking to hang out with meeh... i feel like packing my bags right now and just leaving this hell mouth.. sniff sniff.. i have cried myself to sleep for the past 4 days and i dunno y.. i woke up from a dream that i wish would sometimes come true but i woke up and i relized it was all a dream and started crying i call the one person that has always been there for meeh but this time he wasn't there he didn't pick up his phone.. i feel like everyone is just fed up with meeh.. i feel like the old meeh again lonely and thinking no one really cares.. and i dunno what to do i just wanna run and keep running and never stop.. cuz right now in my head thats all im doing.. i don't wanna be like this again look were it got meeh last time..but that's how i feel.. i feel alone again with no one to turn too.. and all i do is i think about everything and it just makes it worse.. and i dunno how to deal.. sometimes i just wanna pack my bags and just leave and never turn and look back cuz then i could start over were no one knoes meeh and i could be anyone i wanted.. but let's face it i could never do that..
2 years of high skool WOW HIGH SCHOOL IS SUPPOSED TO BE THE BEST TIME OF YOUR FUCKING LIFE.. WELL to meeh it's not! there's to much fuckin drama.. with " o he's my man.. she had sex with him.. omg there dating " WTF WHO CARES!! theres to much drama in high school.. and i think everyone would agree with meeh on this.. to much stress in this world.. sometimes i wish ppl would mind there own buisness.. and let other ppl live there life the way they want it with out your fuckin opinion, if you don't like what someone is doing keep it to yourself.. and don't fuckin assume shit! get the facts before you open you mouth and start rumers.. and remember WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND! so whatever you say or do will come back to you 100 times worse.. so think before you speak.. that's how i fuckin feel about high skool.. to much fuckin drama! these are all the reasons whay i just was pack my bags and leave from this hell mouth and start over.. be somebody new! BUT you know what im gonna do im gonna breakaway and " I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky I'll make a wish
Take a chance Make a change And breakaway Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved I'll take a risk Take a chance Make a change And breakaway " That's what im gonna do.. i wont stop tell i touch the sky.. and to just say FUCK YOU to all the ppl who start rumers about meeh or anyone else and start drama for a stupid reasons.. i really don't care what you all think about meeh.. i don't need anyone like you to make meeh happy.. i don't care if you hate meeh.. im gonna bee who i am and im gonna do what i want and if you don't like it fuck you then i don't need you in my life and don't act like your my friend to my face.. cuz you think i have no idea that you talk shit about meeh ahah nice that you think that everything you ppl say about meeh always comes back to meeh.. so don't bee a two face and act like you like meeh.. cuz if you hate meeh lol like i give a fuck im not gonna trip over it im not gonna cry cuz you were just a waste of my time.. so don't act like you like meeh and like your my friend to my face cuz i know you talk shit about meeh lol it's just funny how you think i have no idea what you all say about meeh.. but fuck you.. you have no idea what im like or what i do or how i live my life you don't know meeh so don't act like you do cuz you don't.. GET A LIFE.. just cuz you have nothing else to do but start drama GROW UP! and get over yourself..
Megan