its the bitter taste of losing everything that i've held so dear....

[xxnevermeant2be]

idk how much longer i can deal with all this before i finally give in. family friends school and just about everything you can think of, is messed up right now. people lying, and talking behind backs, my mom is getting worse. and he still wont talk to me. ahh i wish things were exactly how they were in june. he was still here, we werent in school, i had one of the best weeks ever at the beach, and i was doing really good. but then july came and everything went downhill from there. i lost two of the greatest ppl in my life in pretty much about two weeks. school started back and it was hell. things started to get better by september but then things started going wrong with friends, people were acting even more fake then i ever thought was possible and then what i thought was a perfect relationship, went straight down the drain. i really dont know what to do anymore. i mean sure i have fantastic people in my life, but what good does it do me when the only person you can really talk to, wont even talk to you? idk i dont really care anymore. im back to the old ways of just going through the day numb, not really caring. blah. oh well. im tired of just writing thoughts in here. i think im done with this stupid thing. doesnt do anything but make matters worse

im out. see yall tomorrow.
i dont know how im gonna get through monday... but hey at least its only a two day week, right?
<3 kelsey