maybe a little intoxicated...
im at jessicas house right now. have been since about 7. she said she was inviting a few friends over. i didnt realize thatd be like thrity people. but i should of known with jessica so im enjoying the drinks. and the people. these are the people i love spending my time. (not drunk people, but people who are themselves, and have friends that like them for WHO they ARE) not anything like Apex. everyones so fake. so yes. im kinda bored. but im getting ready to play my second round of kings. no more smirnoff, which is all i was planning on... so now its on to hmm.. corona, killians, or blue moon <3 but yeah. ill write something before i go. because i came here with one intention. of leaving here and not having to think about the things that have been on my mind for the past few weeks. but their still here... like that song "never could get drunk enough to get it off her mind" but anyways. im hoping this next round of kings will do the trick. :)
i say something deep
and all you can respond with is some
"im gonna act like i dont care" answer.
you have this attitude that says
"this is me, and if you dont understand, well.. fuck you"
you bottle it up inside
i told you that it was crazy.
it will end up hurting you -bad.
im here for you
let it out on me,
yell scream cry laugh
ill be your punching bag
just show me some kind of hint
that this actually means something to you.
but of course
you roll your eyes,
and walk away..
because you have this "reputation"
that you care so much about protecting
but i know youve got something more
then that skin-deep tough guy look
i try and get you to confide in me
i tell you how much i care
and you brush me off like im dust.
it hurts
ill be honest.
you've put me through a lot of pain
but that doesnt mean i dont still care
and it doesnt mean i will ever stop caring.
your a part of me that will never fade
your the only one who knows me
better then i know myself
and you know that i see past your image
i know theres something more under it
but you try and cover it up
by blowing me off.
one day
when i finally give up
you'll realize
i was sincere
and i was just trying to help
i dont want to lose you too,
because your the only one...who completely takes my breath away.*
^^wow that was a lot longer then i thought it would be. yeah i definately say to much when i drink. im becoming like you. i want to bottle it up, and put on that fake shell of how im happy, and nothings ever wrong.
(and btw that was definately for kristen and meghan because that was pretty much all we talked about in drama today. love you girls <3)
ok they're yelling for me. kings here i come. and then on to twister of course. because what would our night be without twister?
<3 kelsey
i say something deep
and all you can respond with is some
"im gonna act like i dont care" answer.
you have this attitude that says
"this is me, and if you dont understand, well.. fuck you"
you bottle it up inside
i told you that it was crazy.
it will end up hurting you -bad.
im here for you
let it out on me,
yell scream cry laugh
ill be your punching bag
just show me some kind of hint
that this actually means something to you.
but of course
you roll your eyes,
and walk away..
because you have this "reputation"
that you care so much about protecting
but i know youve got something more
then that skin-deep tough guy look
i try and get you to confide in me
i tell you how much i care
and you brush me off like im dust.
it hurts
ill be honest.
you've put me through a lot of pain
but that doesnt mean i dont still care
and it doesnt mean i will ever stop caring.
your a part of me that will never fade
your the only one who knows me
better then i know myself
and you know that i see past your image
i know theres something more under it
but you try and cover it up
by blowing me off.
one day
when i finally give up
you'll realize
i was sincere
and i was just trying to help
i dont want to lose you too,
because your the only one...who completely takes my breath away.*
^^wow that was a lot longer then i thought it would be. yeah i definately say to much when i drink. im becoming like you. i want to bottle it up, and put on that fake shell of how im happy, and nothings ever wrong.
(and btw that was definately for kristen and meghan because that was pretty much all we talked about in drama today. love you girls <3)
ok they're yelling for me. kings here i come. and then on to twister of course. because what would our night be without twister?
<3 kelsey