Sick
So I have mono. I'm thinking that I got it on the Arizona trip or the week before. Needless to say, that trip wasn't worth the money and the time away from home. Can you blame me I was sick the whole time. The worse thing is that we performed a parade where the supervisors were passing around water bottles. SHARED water bottles. Yes, the whole 2 hundered and something number of band students all sharing the same water bottles. Mono must have spread like madness threw them. I've already encountered the pus postules and soar throat symptoms which I've survived. This week my symptoms just consist of being extremelly tired. I'll wake up from sleeping for 17 whole hours and try to get out of the house and end up falling asleep somewhere else an hour later. The cool thing is that I have a doctor's excuse for this whole thing for school where whenever I feel tired and can't make it through the school day I can leave and it's excused. I've made it a good priority to try not to abuse this. Luckily, all of my academic classes are in the morning so I can leave right at 1 and go home to sleep. Cricket has been freaking out alot lately. He more than likely is sick too it really sucks. He went with Bruce tonight I really want him to come over or talk to me on the phone. I hate having one person to be close with. I let it not bother me for awhile, but it's starting to annoy me again. I get less and less attached to other things and people and more attatched to him. I really don't blame myself so much. It's not like I don't try or don't make effort to be around other people it's a two way thing. And I'm scared that I've become obsessed and over dependent of my and Cricket's relationship. Which is worse when all that we've done lately is fought. I don't understand how I can be so weak when it comes to his feelings and give in and baisically fuck myself over. It's worth it I know but is it wrong to have to second guess it sometimes? I'm going to go anyway laterrrrrr.