6th entry
i staid up all night & i drank sum of the vodka that my mom keeps in the back of the yellow cuboard
iT tasted nasty but like once i had a bit of it it was ok&I felt really chilled. im scarred that she will see sum of its gone but i put sum water in so it looks the smae. i dont think she will notise i hate my mom she is so dumb.
i feel abit sick now but i have to get reddy for school im not going but i have to go out the house so my mom thinks i am going but im going to hide in the bushes until i c her leaving for work then im going back in i want to get into bed and hide under the blankets with my barbie doll even though i cut her head off last week i might call jake & c if he wants to come over and fool around abit i might let him put his thing in me im tired of being a virgin all my frends have had sex not that i have any frends but you no what i mean.i dont want to have a baby though but i dont think that happens the first time u do it at least thats what amanda told me.
im going to get dressed up so that i look pretty or as pretty as i can anyway but i dont no whether to wear my black dress or my black skirt and black top.
i have to go and get ready now c you all later
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iT tasted nasty but like once i had a bit of it it was ok&I felt really chilled. im scarred that she will see sum of its gone but i put sum water in so it looks the smae. i dont think she will notise i hate my mom she is so dumb.
i feel abit sick now but i have to get reddy for school im not going but i have to go out the house so my mom thinks i am going but im going to hide in the bushes until i c her leaving for work then im going back in i want to get into bed and hide under the blankets with my barbie doll even though i cut her head off last week i might call jake & c if he wants to come over and fool around abit i might let him put his thing in me im tired of being a virgin all my frends have had sex not that i have any frends but you no what i mean.i dont want to have a baby though but i dont think that happens the first time u do it at least thats what amanda told me.
im going to get dressed up so that i look pretty or as pretty as i can anyway but i dont no whether to wear my black dress or my black skirt and black top.
i have to go and get ready now c you all later
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