bite me bitch, it turns me on
im watching forces of nature and its great :) spmdra bullock is awesome. 8) and its making me horny lmfao.
shit damn nukka, i hate this so bad.
Would you like me to pretend I’m alright?
That these scars don’t exist
That I don’t feel like dying tonight.
All the things I found even though you never told me,
All the reasons I have for your satisfaction of seeing me bleed myself dry on your bed-sheets.
For the last night I lie to you,
Would you mind me being by you?
I know you so well,
I’m holding onto your memory that haunts me all to well,
Searching myself to find your name in the midst of nightmares and lies.
A long list of crimes by your book,
You can make sure I stand trial for my sins when you next see me in hell.
You can’t understand
I bleed for a nameless face
Yellow like the sweater on the floor by your bed.
Blue like the skies seen while standing by your windowsill.
Purple are imaginary dreams you’re playing through your head
Right in front of your eyes.
Orange like the rotting of your heart.
It makes you sicker with each beat it makes.
Green, the color your eyes are when you look at me so guilt-free,
They’re the only un-contaminated thing about you.
Black, blue, the colors my heart turns when your games are done.
Red, the color of the bathroom floor when I leave.
Pink, the color that floods her cheeks when I walk into your room and find you there.
And grey, the color everything fades as soon as I collapse outside the red floored bathroom door.
It’s thundering like your footsteps,
And the blood in my head.
My feet are on the ground and I feel like I’m falling.
Please, hold me.
My hands are shaking and I’m afraid I’ll drown.
I need you, to hold me.
I’m so weak,
So close to letting go.
So calm and composed.
I’m drifting like smoke from your lungs.
I’m falling apart inside and no one knows.
I mean it more right now than I ever have.
I’m getting so tired, I think I’ll drop out.
This guilt is taking me down.
I’m holding on the best I can and I’m still failing.
Still falling.
Trying to keep the blood from running down my arms,
Trying to keep a promise meant to be broken.
I’m needing you here, to hold me as I fall in the wake of your footsteps.
So fragile,
So thin.
Staying standing up.
And gradually caving in.
No one cares if you’re losing yourself.
There’s just not enough to keep me here.
I should call your name,
But my fingers are too weak to pull myself up so I can speak.
Scream,
Until the end has come of everything you said you’d do,
And haven’t done.
A static memory keeping me in-between reality and red dreams.
It’s so dark out tonight.
I don’t think I can hold out until tomorrow.
If I never come home will you miss me?
Would you notice my absence?
If I fall down,
Don’t catch me.
I know it’s okay,
I really do.
I’m looking in this mirror and not recognizing who’s looking back.
I feel so removed from everything,
Like I’m looking in on a movie-life.
I’m screaming into a dead microphone as you’re questioning my existence.
Then you’re gone.
A single click and it feels like the last light has just gone out.
Will you be on the line to hear the clicking of this gun?
Thus,
Here,
Now.
This burning around my neck draws me back down to earth.
I’m falling under and drowning in my final memory,
The haunting smile you saved for me.
Hear the click,
And say goodbye.
i love my poetry, its jusy like, yeah. people write stories peopel cry, i write it gets it out and its nto half bad sometimes. maybe ill start or join a band so i can use this stuff as songs or soemthing. thatd be cool. i woudl so want to sing lmfao. even if everyone thought i sucked id want to :P
so yeah, kate said she'd take me to jered on wendesday so she coudl meet him and such and itd be cool, so thats good :) plus shes all excited bc she has a date with hott tony and shes like morgan, is he hott? lol. its funny, this is kate, and its so weird to see her be liek this. i dunno.
mehehe, theyre doing the tarzan yell in this movie LOL. makes me wanna do it too :/ lol. dont think the neighbors would appreciate it :P
so yeah, i might get my ear finished when i get home, thatd be cool. i want to go to target and buy this SO CUTE skirt, its white and all cool like, get this, kate has it, but its like an XL and im liek a small so i put it on and just held in the waist LOL its sooo hot, i want it so bad.
dude im hungry. :/ blah. jered is goign to call me when he gets back from seeing dodgeball. yeah we were gonna see it together but he wantedto go with chris, and i wsa like yeah thats col. i really dont mind. ill just make him go again :P lol. and plus, im not hte kind of cold hard bitch who tells peopel they cant do stuff when therye bored just because i dont want them to. thats totally being whipped. -.- and i dont do that.
so yeah, im going to go hunt some food down and then wait for him to call.
dont say goodbye,
its getting harder to fall asleep alone.
do you understand this time?
im getting so tired of playing games where i cant look you in the eye.
suddenly i dont miss the knives.
shit damn nukka, i hate this so bad.
Would you like me to pretend I’m alright?
That these scars don’t exist
That I don’t feel like dying tonight.
All the things I found even though you never told me,
All the reasons I have for your satisfaction of seeing me bleed myself dry on your bed-sheets.
For the last night I lie to you,
Would you mind me being by you?
I know you so well,
I’m holding onto your memory that haunts me all to well,
Searching myself to find your name in the midst of nightmares and lies.
A long list of crimes by your book,
You can make sure I stand trial for my sins when you next see me in hell.
You can’t understand
I bleed for a nameless face
Yellow like the sweater on the floor by your bed.
Blue like the skies seen while standing by your windowsill.
Purple are imaginary dreams you’re playing through your head
Right in front of your eyes.
Orange like the rotting of your heart.
It makes you sicker with each beat it makes.
Green, the color your eyes are when you look at me so guilt-free,
They’re the only un-contaminated thing about you.
Black, blue, the colors my heart turns when your games are done.
Red, the color of the bathroom floor when I leave.
Pink, the color that floods her cheeks when I walk into your room and find you there.
And grey, the color everything fades as soon as I collapse outside the red floored bathroom door.
It’s thundering like your footsteps,
And the blood in my head.
My feet are on the ground and I feel like I’m falling.
Please, hold me.
My hands are shaking and I’m afraid I’ll drown.
I need you, to hold me.
I’m so weak,
So close to letting go.
So calm and composed.
I’m drifting like smoke from your lungs.
I’m falling apart inside and no one knows.
I mean it more right now than I ever have.
I’m getting so tired, I think I’ll drop out.
This guilt is taking me down.
I’m holding on the best I can and I’m still failing.
Still falling.
Trying to keep the blood from running down my arms,
Trying to keep a promise meant to be broken.
I’m needing you here, to hold me as I fall in the wake of your footsteps.
So fragile,
So thin.
Staying standing up.
And gradually caving in.
No one cares if you’re losing yourself.
There’s just not enough to keep me here.
I should call your name,
But my fingers are too weak to pull myself up so I can speak.
Scream,
Until the end has come of everything you said you’d do,
And haven’t done.
A static memory keeping me in-between reality and red dreams.
It’s so dark out tonight.
I don’t think I can hold out until tomorrow.
If I never come home will you miss me?
Would you notice my absence?
If I fall down,
Don’t catch me.
I know it’s okay,
I really do.
I’m looking in this mirror and not recognizing who’s looking back.
I feel so removed from everything,
Like I’m looking in on a movie-life.
I’m screaming into a dead microphone as you’re questioning my existence.
Then you’re gone.
A single click and it feels like the last light has just gone out.
Will you be on the line to hear the clicking of this gun?
Thus,
Here,
Now.
This burning around my neck draws me back down to earth.
I’m falling under and drowning in my final memory,
The haunting smile you saved for me.
Hear the click,
And say goodbye.
i love my poetry, its jusy like, yeah. people write stories peopel cry, i write it gets it out and its nto half bad sometimes. maybe ill start or join a band so i can use this stuff as songs or soemthing. thatd be cool. i woudl so want to sing lmfao. even if everyone thought i sucked id want to :P
so yeah, kate said she'd take me to jered on wendesday so she coudl meet him and such and itd be cool, so thats good :) plus shes all excited bc she has a date with hott tony and shes like morgan, is he hott? lol. its funny, this is kate, and its so weird to see her be liek this. i dunno.
mehehe, theyre doing the tarzan yell in this movie LOL. makes me wanna do it too :/ lol. dont think the neighbors would appreciate it :P
so yeah, i might get my ear finished when i get home, thatd be cool. i want to go to target and buy this SO CUTE skirt, its white and all cool like, get this, kate has it, but its like an XL and im liek a small so i put it on and just held in the waist LOL its sooo hot, i want it so bad.
dude im hungry. :/ blah. jered is goign to call me when he gets back from seeing dodgeball. yeah we were gonna see it together but he wantedto go with chris, and i wsa like yeah thats col. i really dont mind. ill just make him go again :P lol. and plus, im not hte kind of cold hard bitch who tells peopel they cant do stuff when therye bored just because i dont want them to. thats totally being whipped. -.- and i dont do that.
so yeah, im going to go hunt some food down and then wait for him to call.
dont say goodbye,
its getting harder to fall asleep alone.
do you understand this time?
im getting so tired of playing games where i cant look you in the eye.
suddenly i dont miss the knives.