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This whole entry is going to be fucked up cuz it's 2am so today is really yesterday to me and tomorrow is really today....so keep that in mind. :-)
So yesterday (Friday) Josh came over at like 9:30 in the morning and we went to Darien Lake for the day. We had a lot of fun. Then, we came back here exhausted and watched "Bruce Almighty".
I think today (yesterday, technically cuz it's 2 am) was a big step for me. I realized a lot in this day together with Josh. My parents adore him so much. My brother thinks that he is great. It's just a good feeling when he is around and I don't have to worry about anything, like him hiding anything from my family or doing the wrong thing...because him being himself is all that he has to be, and that amounts to perfection. There is nothing fake about any of this, we don't put on a show for anyone...and no one is pretending to be a certain way to better any situation. Eveything is great without skeletons in the closet or secrets that we have to cover for.
My family is so importaint to me and it means so much that they more than approve of Josh. Tonight,(last night) after Josh left around 11:15pm my mom and dad came up to me and said, "I hope you realize what you have isn't easy to come across. You have a great guy, and we really hope things work out with you two for the best."
I am finally not scared to let go. I have no reason to be. I'm falling for him so hard it's crazy. Josh is everything I could ask for, and has the qualities that I could only have dreamed of. Being with him today (friday)made me see that I really care about him. Time doesn't justify how intese feelings are. I was with someone for 2 years, and never got to this. There are just no obstacles that we have to ignore and learn to deal with, unlike ANY other situation I have ever been in before. Eveything stands as is and what it is amazes me more and more every second.
At first when he left, I sat there a little scared. Being that I realized how much I actually care about him, losing him for any reason now would be so hard to even think about. But, I see now that if we are supposed to be together, we will be. And if, for some reason, we aren't meant to be together, then we won't be. There's no need to worry anymore. I am enjoying everyday as it comes, and I am loving how things are.
Josh and I have spent everyday together since we started dating. Tomorrow (today), we both have shit to do all day, so...it will be our 1st day apart. We will be ok, as much as I'm going to miss him, we need this. We can't ignore our friends.
Which brings me to my next point. So far, 6 of my friends have been complaining to eachother that I haven't been talking to them or seeing them as much since I have been with Josh. Please understand that I am NOT trying to ignore anybody, and if you want to talk to hang out...all you have to do is call me. Josh and I have talked about this and it is very importaint to both of us that we maintain a good relationship with our friends as well. I love all of you guys, and I'm not trying to be all about one thing...its just that I am very happy right now.
Sarah and Becky are comming over tomorrow. Sarah and I haven't seen eachother since our week spent together hehe. Becky and I are jamming for a bit on some side project shit we have been working on.
Alright...time to go.
NIGHT!!!
So yesterday (Friday) Josh came over at like 9:30 in the morning and we went to Darien Lake for the day. We had a lot of fun. Then, we came back here exhausted and watched "Bruce Almighty".
I think today (yesterday, technically cuz it's 2 am) was a big step for me. I realized a lot in this day together with Josh. My parents adore him so much. My brother thinks that he is great. It's just a good feeling when he is around and I don't have to worry about anything, like him hiding anything from my family or doing the wrong thing...because him being himself is all that he has to be, and that amounts to perfection. There is nothing fake about any of this, we don't put on a show for anyone...and no one is pretending to be a certain way to better any situation. Eveything is great without skeletons in the closet or secrets that we have to cover for.
My family is so importaint to me and it means so much that they more than approve of Josh. Tonight,(last night) after Josh left around 11:15pm my mom and dad came up to me and said, "I hope you realize what you have isn't easy to come across. You have a great guy, and we really hope things work out with you two for the best."
I am finally not scared to let go. I have no reason to be. I'm falling for him so hard it's crazy. Josh is everything I could ask for, and has the qualities that I could only have dreamed of. Being with him today (friday)made me see that I really care about him. Time doesn't justify how intese feelings are. I was with someone for 2 years, and never got to this. There are just no obstacles that we have to ignore and learn to deal with, unlike ANY other situation I have ever been in before. Eveything stands as is and what it is amazes me more and more every second.
At first when he left, I sat there a little scared. Being that I realized how much I actually care about him, losing him for any reason now would be so hard to even think about. But, I see now that if we are supposed to be together, we will be. And if, for some reason, we aren't meant to be together, then we won't be. There's no need to worry anymore. I am enjoying everyday as it comes, and I am loving how things are.
Josh and I have spent everyday together since we started dating. Tomorrow (today), we both have shit to do all day, so...it will be our 1st day apart. We will be ok, as much as I'm going to miss him, we need this. We can't ignore our friends.
Which brings me to my next point. So far, 6 of my friends have been complaining to eachother that I haven't been talking to them or seeing them as much since I have been with Josh. Please understand that I am NOT trying to ignore anybody, and if you want to talk to hang out...all you have to do is call me. Josh and I have talked about this and it is very importaint to both of us that we maintain a good relationship with our friends as well. I love all of you guys, and I'm not trying to be all about one thing...its just that I am very happy right now.
Sarah and Becky are comming over tomorrow. Sarah and I haven't seen eachother since our week spent together hehe. Becky and I are jamming for a bit on some side project shit we have been working on.
Alright...time to go.
NIGHT!!!