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I't's like 12:30 in the morning but I cant sleep. I'm tired of this shit. I cant take it n e more. Alex came home thursday night and he was suposed to come over on friday but bradley came over to his house so he didnt come over so he said he'd come over today.... well him and bradley went to the skate park. He blows me off 4 fucking bradley every time. I havent seen him n almost 3 months now and the last time he was down here I didnt c him but he saw bradley. I swear him n brad r gay w/ each other. and he has to feed me all this crap like the day b4 he was coming home he was like o i cant wait to see u haley and all this other bull shit. he knew he hurt my feelings when he told me that he was going w/ bradley instead of coming to see me but he doesnt even care. so then later on he calls me and he's like i think i might be going back to tennessee tomarrow 4 a reason i cant say. so i get all upset because now i know i dont get to see him and he's like i knew i shouldnt have told u cause u would get upset and I'm like o so now u actually care that I'm upset cause u didnt care to much this morning when u blew me off 4 bradley. so then i talk to him 4 a while and he did the thing again where he's like I'll call u back I promise and of course he doesnt. I want to hate him so bad and just forget him, but I cant. He always does things that hurt me and he doesnt even care because he just keeps doing it. I just want to see him so I can hug him and 4 just one moment I wont b lonely. I just want someone to care about me and I know he doesnt. I just dont know what to do.