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Today was the weirdest day of my life. Just last night Megan, Jacinda, and I were talking about this girl from Lanseville that was killed in a car wreck just 2 days b4 graduation and we were talking about how it could happen to N E one and then today it happened to us only we all lived. Will, Jacinda, Megan, and me were in Will's car pulling into save-a-lot to give Tommy a number and we were stopped getting ready to turn when a guy rear ended us going 40 mph. It didnt really damage the car or N E thing but when it hit us we all jerked our heads back really hard and Will's neck popped and the ambulance had to come take him to the hospital. I blacked out after it happened and went into shock and I didnt really know what was happening. Jacinda was crying but she was okay and Megan was so scared she started hyperventilating and they almost had to take her to the hospital but she calmed down. Out of everybody I seemed the calmest but so many things were running through my head, like if it would have been worse and we could have been killed. I'm not happy w/ my life yet and I wasnt ready and I was just so scared all I could think about was Megan and If she was okay because I was trying to calm her down. I was shaking real bad and I felt like crying but nothing would come out all I could do was think about people that I care about. I didnt even notice how bad my neck felt until later after we had left to go to Megan's gradma's. The paramedics had to take my blood pressure and ask me a bunch of questions. I started crying for like 2 minutes right after I got out of the car but then I started thinking again. Everybody is okay now. Will is home and we are all fine but it made me realize that it really can happen to N E one and so I should try to make my life as happy 4 me as I can all the time because I might not b here tomorrow. And I dont want to fight w/ my mom N e more because what if I had been mad at her or something when it happened and it was worse. She would have to live w/ that and I dont want to die being mad w/ people and unhappy. I know this sounds like a bunch of bull shit to some people because there like yea so what I've been in a wreck too, but it just seems so different when you had just been talking about how it could happen to N E one and suddenly that N E one is you. I just hope this teaches me to make more of my life because it really could end short.