Mar 15, 2007 00:29
so im like sitting here bored...as usual...and having to look forward to one more repetitive day and than its hopefully new car time...anyways i was looking through my old friends (people that i no longer talk to because i came to gods waiting room)...facebook pictures that were posted recently and not so recently...i dunno it just made me sad...like looking through all their bazillions of pictures and just seeing that whole real college experience upset me...first off im bored...and eat mah boredem away...secondly, im not able to network and meet new people...not that i want to replace the ones i have currently...i just want to constantly be meeting someone new...its the inner celebrity in me...i want to fuckin be wasted out of mah mind at 130 in the afternoon with mah friends...paint mahself colors that dont even belong to mah school but i convinced mahself that they were the new ones...and run around campus with a bazillion other people...gettin hyped up about the big game...chasing the hot dog man...and bringing a keg to the game...like um hello...thats fun to me...i mean here at fgcu the only sense of school pride we have in our not so fun to watch sports...are those little for sale by owner signs that people stick in their yards...only these say go eagles (a letter on every sign)...i mean as much as that excites me *in case u didnt pick up on that...its called sarcasm*...id like something different...i mean fgcus big news is they have a taco bell...and some other generic restuaraunts...WHERE THE FUCK IS THE BAR???...oh yeah they got rid of that over priced grease pit and got an einsteins i mean cool...whatever...but where is this social hub of this community...i mean i have great friends...def not complaining...i just have regreted alot of my past decisions in highschool...such as never going to a football game...never going to any dances...and never being really active in anything but being a bitch...i mean i want to be involved in mah school...but not here...oooh we have greek life...whoopty doo fuckin doo...they pay dues to not even have a greek row...and all of them are pretty lame letters in mah opinion...where is the diverse greek system...and party houses that close down the roads leading to them on a nightly basis for one crazy party after another...all ive done since i got here...is well...drink alot...fuck off...and gain an assload of weight-literally...and now that brenna is leaving i kinda understand why she needs to get away...theres a lack of mental stimulation in this town...to the point where people are going nutso...and fuckin shit up...i mean...hey fuck ur shit up...but i just want that real college experience...i dont kno if id necessarily have it and it will be something ill look back and never be able to obtain...meaning ill be too old...to go to a diff school...ill be too rooted here to leave...i wont live on campus again anywhere (and ull def need that experience at a real school)...and ill never experience all the things i need to...to grow up...im ready for something more...and something real...and lasting in mah memory...i mean i have it...but not on as large a scale as id like...i mean u kno how i always gotta meet someone...like mah ideal situation...would be walkin to a class on a diff path...covered in trees and people...bumping into someone...starting a conversation and adding them to the social network...and have some kind of instance of that on a regular basis...im just bored mentally and physically...i need a little more substance...i dunno...
-blah!
my away message currently says:
"i think i wanna move and have a REAL college experience...not retire at 21 and wait for medicare and social security to kick in as i wait to rott in a hole in the ground"...
and i find it kinda humorous...but its sooo true...