stream of consciousness entry
well i was going through my journal and came upon something that i forgot i had done. it was one of the coolest things i did here. i made a stream of consciousness entry. basically everything i am thinking i will write it down. they'd be quick random one liners or things like those. usually these get depressive. it's sort of my venting so i don't actually have to say it.
am i not worth the time and effort?
i feel like i don't matter, but i do, don't i?
i feel abandoned by everyone i know.
i have to fight for me.
sometimes i feel like i'll walk this life alone.
i never really find it, and i get closer and closer each time.
i'm walking on the beach and turn around to see only my footsteps.
why do i feel like all my bad decisions are biting me in the ass?
i'm expendable and dry.
all i really wanted to do was fly.
i think this is one of the best songs ever.
death cab for cutie - i will follow you into the dark
i feel like i would stand by my friends no matter what,
but i don't feel the same way when the roles are reversed.
i'm going to make damn sure.
i don't have a formal date. that's what happens when i'm lazy and wait until the last minute.
looks like the bar is going to be my date.
all i do now is get fucking pissed for no reason.
well i'm sure there's a reason, i just don't want you to know.
i'm mildly confused about my friends.
and i want to be alone.
but i hate being alone.
i need to find new things to occupy my time
surfing, playing guitar, job.
i've become lost in the music i listen to
easily give in to what i can relate to
and thus knowing what the artist intended.
sleeping... thinking... wondering...
and hoping... tomorrow will be a brighter day.
anyways, i can't htink of anything i want to write. peace out homes
am i not worth the time and effort?
i feel like i don't matter, but i do, don't i?
i feel abandoned by everyone i know.
i have to fight for me.
sometimes i feel like i'll walk this life alone.
i never really find it, and i get closer and closer each time.
i'm walking on the beach and turn around to see only my footsteps.
why do i feel like all my bad decisions are biting me in the ass?
i'm expendable and dry.
all i really wanted to do was fly.
i think this is one of the best songs ever.
death cab for cutie - i will follow you into the dark
i feel like i would stand by my friends no matter what,
but i don't feel the same way when the roles are reversed.
i'm going to make damn sure.
i don't have a formal date. that's what happens when i'm lazy and wait until the last minute.
looks like the bar is going to be my date.
all i do now is get fucking pissed for no reason.
well i'm sure there's a reason, i just don't want you to know.
i'm mildly confused about my friends.
and i want to be alone.
but i hate being alone.
i need to find new things to occupy my time
surfing, playing guitar, job.
i've become lost in the music i listen to
easily give in to what i can relate to
and thus knowing what the artist intended.
sleeping... thinking... wondering...
and hoping... tomorrow will be a brighter day.
anyways, i can't htink of anything i want to write. peace out homes