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[xxmandariexx]

ok so yesterday had to be one of the worst nights i've had in quite a long time.i went to the movies with my 4 bffs and what was suppose to just be idk i guess a friend date turned into.. fuck idk...so someone special to me(yes you are special..) asked me some things and well... i tried to put them in words but.... idk what happened. i told him as best i could how i felt but for some reason everything came out so wrong. when i finally found a way to describe how i felt he was gone and now i feel like hes gone forever. its like he doesnt even want to be friends anymore. all my vent buddies are like well fuck him if hes going to act like that but no im not going to agree with yall because he didnt really do anything. yea i got put on some guilt trips but after last night i relize i deserved each one.. he might have takin it bad but that was a givin and that once again was my fault. well now i have been crying since i told him..god im pathetic... and i feel like shit
i guess i had that all comming to me...

oh and i have to go see longest yard again... i wasnt really paying attention. blah.