My Tummy Hurts..
My lab yesterday SUCKED. It took way too long, and me and my lab partner barely had any time to write stuff in our notebooks so we were stuck staying after class and doing it. I know I wrote down one equation twice for two different reactions so I know I basically failed that one. Thank God they throw out our lowest score. I didnt get out of the lab until 5:45 and then I had to speed to the home I babysit at. Their kid is so cute, but the parents didnt come home until midnight. Usually I dont mind but I was STARVING. All I had to eat that day was some chicken that was on a ceasar salad and a diet coke. By the time I got home around 1 I just made and english muffin and passed out.
I woke up somewhat late for work today but all we had to do was price all day and me and Donna got to talk a lot which was cool. We took kind of a long break but I think thats just because both of us were tired and didnt realize what time it was. Alvie wrote that she needed sat. off on the work calendar and Frances had scheduled her so I pointed it out. Frances freaked and scribbled out what alvie had written about the day off. When Alvie came in she mentioned needing Sat off and I told her what had happened and Alvie was just like whatever, Ill just call in. I wish I could have that attitude about work. I mean I know there have been times when I called in sick and I just didnt really feel like going in, but that was a long time ago when I was full time and hated being there. Not that i like being there much now, but still it is my job.. I dunno. I wasnt trying to get Alvie in trouble by pointing out the calendar thing I was just wondering if Frances had noticed it because I hadnt seen it there before. Frances did complain about Alvie taking way too long of a break and I lied and said that Alvie took like a 20 min break last monday when it was more like an hour and 20 mins. I dont like lying at all but I dont want Alvie to get in trouble for something that we've all done at one point. I just dont like it how Alvie seems to do it all the time. I mean every once and a while is okay but it seems like shes taking it for granted. Maybe its because she acts like shes as old as me and Donna but shes only 16 so I guess i just expect her to be more mature than she is.
Me and Dan arent really talking anymore. Im sick and tired of people telling me that they care about me, but only seeming to care when I make an effort to talk to THEM. It feels like they rarely ever make an effort to talk to me. When I point that fact out to them of course they bullshit me and lie and say that they do care and they dont mean to come across that way, but actions speak louder than words.
When I was dating Dan he would text me all the time, and he would always be texting other people. No matter what we were doing he always took out the 2 seconds to reply to a text whether we were at dinner, a movie whatever, he still did it. I didnt really find it rude and it never bothered me.
When I decided that I wanted to just be friends I never expected him to text me like he did when we were dating but he did so I got used to it, he used to ask how I was etc and he came across that he actually care. Then he started smoking pot and drinking all the time and rarely ever texting me. When I got mad about it, he told me he did care and he just wanted a chance to prove it and blah blah blah and I caved in and gave him a second try. And a third.. and a fourth. Ive lost count at this point.
He doesnt even text me anymore which is fine, if he doesnt care then he doesnt care, but when I take the effort to text him he will act like we are best friends and that he cares oh so much about me and then in the middle of the conversation he will just stop talking. I understand shit comes up etc, but when someone doesnt answer your texts for HOURS and you know they arent at work, and you know how they always seem to text people when they are with you, it gets really annoying. Im basically just sick and tired of trusting people and believing them and giving them a second chance and having them throw it back in my face. Especailly him and Eric because they both know how hard it is for me to let myself trust people.
I just dont understand why people have to be so fake sometimes. If you dont care about someones life, stop acting like it because you're only hurting them by pretending you do.
I woke up somewhat late for work today but all we had to do was price all day and me and Donna got to talk a lot which was cool. We took kind of a long break but I think thats just because both of us were tired and didnt realize what time it was. Alvie wrote that she needed sat. off on the work calendar and Frances had scheduled her so I pointed it out. Frances freaked and scribbled out what alvie had written about the day off. When Alvie came in she mentioned needing Sat off and I told her what had happened and Alvie was just like whatever, Ill just call in. I wish I could have that attitude about work. I mean I know there have been times when I called in sick and I just didnt really feel like going in, but that was a long time ago when I was full time and hated being there. Not that i like being there much now, but still it is my job.. I dunno. I wasnt trying to get Alvie in trouble by pointing out the calendar thing I was just wondering if Frances had noticed it because I hadnt seen it there before. Frances did complain about Alvie taking way too long of a break and I lied and said that Alvie took like a 20 min break last monday when it was more like an hour and 20 mins. I dont like lying at all but I dont want Alvie to get in trouble for something that we've all done at one point. I just dont like it how Alvie seems to do it all the time. I mean every once and a while is okay but it seems like shes taking it for granted. Maybe its because she acts like shes as old as me and Donna but shes only 16 so I guess i just expect her to be more mature than she is.
Me and Dan arent really talking anymore. Im sick and tired of people telling me that they care about me, but only seeming to care when I make an effort to talk to THEM. It feels like they rarely ever make an effort to talk to me. When I point that fact out to them of course they bullshit me and lie and say that they do care and they dont mean to come across that way, but actions speak louder than words.
When I was dating Dan he would text me all the time, and he would always be texting other people. No matter what we were doing he always took out the 2 seconds to reply to a text whether we were at dinner, a movie whatever, he still did it. I didnt really find it rude and it never bothered me.
When I decided that I wanted to just be friends I never expected him to text me like he did when we were dating but he did so I got used to it, he used to ask how I was etc and he came across that he actually care. Then he started smoking pot and drinking all the time and rarely ever texting me. When I got mad about it, he told me he did care and he just wanted a chance to prove it and blah blah blah and I caved in and gave him a second try. And a third.. and a fourth. Ive lost count at this point.
He doesnt even text me anymore which is fine, if he doesnt care then he doesnt care, but when I take the effort to text him he will act like we are best friends and that he cares oh so much about me and then in the middle of the conversation he will just stop talking. I understand shit comes up etc, but when someone doesnt answer your texts for HOURS and you know they arent at work, and you know how they always seem to text people when they are with you, it gets really annoying. Im basically just sick and tired of trusting people and believing them and giving them a second chance and having them throw it back in my face. Especailly him and Eric because they both know how hard it is for me to let myself trust people.
I just dont understand why people have to be so fake sometimes. If you dont care about someones life, stop acting like it because you're only hurting them by pretending you do.