Living your life the way you want.
Watching Taiyo to Umi no Kyoshitsu, made mE ponder about my present and future. I mean not like I never thought about this before, just that I guess everytime i think, or try to think, I've never really got an answer to them. It's the same now tho u_u So I'll pass on those question and continue what I always do. I've always envied people who have dreams or people who know what to aim for their life, or how they want their life to be, coz i never really had them >.< which is the reason why I couldn't get an answer no matter how much I think, lol. I mean even my studies now have no relevance to my interest, but more to what I can possibly do with what I have. All, or most of the decision of my life now are basically decided by people other than mE. Not that I wasn't given a choice to decide for myself for some of the stuff, but more like, I couldn't come up with a decent decision with it. So I guess I rather follow what other people think is good for mE rather than deciding about smth even vague to myself. If you have to put it together in words, something like, I don't know what to do with my life.
Up to the point now, I still have not discovered what I really want to do. I may have several interest, but it never really gave mE a 'That's it!' type of impression. To be frank, I really hate working in an office-like place coz it feels... rigid? or it's like trapping up yourself and not letting you discover the world outside there... but I know that I can adapt to them despite how I hate them. I know I won't like my job in the near future, but I will somehow find a way to like them. Knowing that I would be someone like this, I wonder if there will ever be a day where I can be true to myself doing something I really want... or whether I can really think for myself or take the initiative of what to do rather than coping with the situation. I hope by the time I truly think I am independent enough to take responsibility of my own action, I have the courage to break free out of my shell. I'm talking more and more stuff that doesn't make sense "OTL Oh well xD
To myself 10 years in future, I wonder how you turn out to be (>_<) Hope I can be content with my life by then~
Up to the point now, I still have not discovered what I really want to do. I may have several interest, but it never really gave mE a 'That's it!' type of impression. To be frank, I really hate working in an office-like place coz it feels... rigid? or it's like trapping up yourself and not letting you discover the world outside there... but I know that I can adapt to them despite how I hate them. I know I won't like my job in the near future, but I will somehow find a way to like them. Knowing that I would be someone like this, I wonder if there will ever be a day where I can be true to myself doing something I really want... or whether I can really think for myself or take the initiative of what to do rather than coping with the situation. I hope by the time I truly think I am independent enough to take responsibility of my own action, I have the courage to break free out of my shell. I'm talking more and more stuff that doesn't make sense "OTL Oh well xD
To myself 10 years in future, I wonder how you turn out to be (>_<) Hope I can be content with my life by then~