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So I've not posted in awhile... and I'm sitting here in the "Business Center" with a friend who is filling herself with yahoo chat goodness... mmm... As far as an update on m life not much I can sa to be honest. Same easy going, doing what is bing done now and not thinking about how things are gonna be in the future type of attitude. I know that Isn't a good thing but it's all I can do at the moment. I wish I had a way to learn how ot drive, someone to take me out and get comfortable behind a whell... I know all the rules and regulations it's easy shit... but I'm too timid ot pass any test. Then there is the whole job thing which goes back to needing a solid bit of transportation... If I knew someone dependable enough for a ride 2 and fro I would jump up and get a job no probably but there lies the problem.. I know no one who I can depend on no matter how bad they are feeling or however bad the weather is, I can't ask someone to be my taxi... Goes against my respectful nature, I could never ask someone to promise me they would never fail to get me to work and back... the onl people I could feel comfortable asking is family and with every bit of family that I knew moving away from me... that's now impossible!
Time to install some organization in this post, as far as family is concerned the business in Danville is going great for my dad. I'm glad he's doing so well there. My mom moved to cincinati not to long ago and has been enjoing it up there as well... the only family nearby would be the grandparents that didn't want me for a grandchild, the same ones that put me up for adoption at the age of - just born. I was never named by my family I was "baby boy" Dinsmore. It wasn' until I was 6 months before I was adopted by the ones who made me, after they had fled from m mother's parents. RawR! What an update...
But not all my life is so weird as above... I've met quie a lot of people on my way from booted out the door. One of them, Tasha, is the one I'm in here with... I had original thought me and her would make a good couple and had had many a conversations about it with her. But these past few days I ealized i just wouldn't feel right to me. So I'm out looking for someone to call mine... someone that I can devote my time to. I have a lot of it here lately, no more school... no job currently either. All there is for me to do is pledge myself to making someone happy, that in turn would make me feel so much beter about myself...
Any of you random internet people want to chat feel free to comment... on a more realiztic note, the only people that will see this are my current friends anyways, so it's not the best medium for meeting new people. Which brings up another dilemma... Where do I go to meet the one who is for me? The mall is littered with younglings while the college crowd is out of my reach and I never found any of the girls that frequented that crowd very appealing... All I know is I'm screwed... and that I have my 5 year reunion coming up in a year... and I've gotten nothing to present for the "show and tell" portion of it... Sure I have a lot of wisdom about the way the world works, mainly how people work... but that's nothing physical that I can present.
So this is my long update I decided to do... I hope it satisfies our all's thirst for more insight on what makes me... me... but if that's something you'd like to know... hang out with me instead... I'm not as dreary.
-JT
Time to install some organization in this post, as far as family is concerned the business in Danville is going great for my dad. I'm glad he's doing so well there. My mom moved to cincinati not to long ago and has been enjoing it up there as well... the only family nearby would be the grandparents that didn't want me for a grandchild, the same ones that put me up for adoption at the age of - just born. I was never named by my family I was "baby boy" Dinsmore. It wasn' until I was 6 months before I was adopted by the ones who made me, after they had fled from m mother's parents. RawR! What an update...
But not all my life is so weird as above... I've met quie a lot of people on my way from booted out the door. One of them, Tasha, is the one I'm in here with... I had original thought me and her would make a good couple and had had many a conversations about it with her. But these past few days I ealized i just wouldn't feel right to me. So I'm out looking for someone to call mine... someone that I can devote my time to. I have a lot of it here lately, no more school... no job currently either. All there is for me to do is pledge myself to making someone happy, that in turn would make me feel so much beter about myself...
Any of you random internet people want to chat feel free to comment... on a more realiztic note, the only people that will see this are my current friends anyways, so it's not the best medium for meeting new people. Which brings up another dilemma... Where do I go to meet the one who is for me? The mall is littered with younglings while the college crowd is out of my reach and I never found any of the girls that frequented that crowd very appealing... All I know is I'm screwed... and that I have my 5 year reunion coming up in a year... and I've gotten nothing to present for the "show and tell" portion of it... Sure I have a lot of wisdom about the way the world works, mainly how people work... but that's nothing physical that I can present.
So this is my long update I decided to do... I hope it satisfies our all's thirst for more insight on what makes me... me... but if that's something you'd like to know... hang out with me instead... I'm not as dreary.
-JT