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[xxlullaby]

 so the girls on my new swim team hate me.

its like this.
Me.
Kate.
Haley.
Asmi.
Nicole.
Erin.

Im friends with kate, haley, and erin.
Im kind of friends with Asmi and Nicole.
Erin is friends with Asmi and Nicole.

Haley and I are about a size 7 pants
Kate is about a size 3 or 5
Asmi Nicole and Erin are all about size 3 or 5

Haley and I were talking

Comments

[artxcoloredeyes]

why would anyone hate you over a small fight.. i wouldn't' assume that. i think you worry far too much. and if theyh ate you why does it matter? do you really think you can go through life without having a single person hate you? even the nicest person in the world will have someone who hates them because they are annoyed by how nice they are.

[xxlullaby]

theyre my teammates and i swim to get away from everything.

erin said to me once 'swimming is the only place you wont be judged'
i finally started to believe her and it just hurt that i tried to make friends and i cant even do that on a swim team.
i swim so slow the least i should be able to do is make friends

[artxcoloredeyes]

you dont have to be on a swimteam to swim.. you can go to any college with a pool and shit and usually theyll have free times for people who want to do laps can swim.

[xxlullaby]

actually im committed to that team until the end of july

and i paid a shitload of money to do so

[artxcoloredeyes]

I remember back when I was younger , probably like 12 or 13, I had these girls on swim team be like "Shes weird, shes fat, and she doesn't do any of the exercises" and I overheard them talking about me and I never went back haha. I use to be real fat, like 145.

[xxlullaby]

well thats a shitty swimteam because on a normal swimteam people dont judge others, or at least on mine they dont ...

and man i know what you mean cause like a month ago i was a norm of 143

im trying to get down to 130 before i graduate and 120 before i go to college

and then well see from there once i join their swimteam ;]