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i do want to put a disclaimer on the last entry...
i know i am loved... and i do love back... it just hurts that my reality is the continues pain of feeling a need of love from a man who deserves not a second glance from my eyes.. i just cant forget or stop trying and every time my heart breaks yet again with pain and impossible grief to bear... a void that can never be filled is a painfull one to say the least...
will i ever be ok with it.. probably not... but i will always be able to use that pain as my muse and hopefully help others cope with something that is not thier fault but feels as if it is something they have done and can not change...
when the pressure of weight is unbearable and the one who is to relieve you never comes how long till you crumble how long till you give up faith
my friends are my family... my friends are those who love me no matter what.. they are all i need.. they are all i have .. and i dont think i would choose it any other way.. for they are exactly what i wish for them to be... perfect for me.. and if i am selfish about it then so be it... they remind me that it is not my fault... it is not me .. and for that i am greatfull... to know them allows me to smile .. they may not be able to take the weight off my shoulders but they are there to help me hold it....
i know i am loved... and i do love back... it just hurts that my reality is the continues pain of feeling a need of love from a man who deserves not a second glance from my eyes.. i just cant forget or stop trying and every time my heart breaks yet again with pain and impossible grief to bear... a void that can never be filled is a painfull one to say the least...
will i ever be ok with it.. probably not... but i will always be able to use that pain as my muse and hopefully help others cope with something that is not thier fault but feels as if it is something they have done and can not change...
when the pressure of weight is unbearable and the one who is to relieve you never comes how long till you crumble how long till you give up faith
my friends are my family... my friends are those who love me no matter what.. they are all i need.. they are all i have .. and i dont think i would choose it any other way.. for they are exactly what i wish for them to be... perfect for me.. and if i am selfish about it then so be it... they remind me that it is not my fault... it is not me .. and for that i am greatfull... to know them allows me to smile .. they may not be able to take the weight off my shoulders but they are there to help me hold it....