EMO RYAN!
i closed my eyes to soo much for so long and i cant anymore...How can I want him still when there is nothing there? This should have been my year! but it's over now actually it never began...I tried to blame it on GOD because he was there but I know the truth and it haunts me...Is this the moment when I beg for help? Ask everyone for support? place my trust in something that can back fire? I know when people look at me for who I am the see this tortured soul crying for help? but i slap on my happy face and smile like the fucking Faggot I am. just there to tell girls how to dress what guys are supposed to look like, Queers are not allowed to have emotions Fags cant love we just fuck...Because in the end i look back and when everyone else is happy this Faggot cries him self to sleep...I cant live with these expectations! I am not who I am anymore... i always tell people that "when your world falls apart you pick it up and leave the bad shit out" but when you cant pick up the peices what do you do? Someone is always watching me everyday I feel like a fucking sideshow. like look there is the fag. what outragous thing is he going to do today? why should someone else fight someone else's fight? if every Fucking Homosexual wore like all one color each day then people would understand they are not alone that there are more gays then just me at our school...People will say then dont fight for gay rights Ryan...but if nobody fought for womens rights do you think that people would just change their minds? FUCK NO sometimes you have to fight for the person that hates you for being openly gay...
Your world is killing me...
Your world is killing me...