game on
yesterday i went to the park with my two brothers for a bit before dinner. i love fall - i dont think there is a better season. i talked to tara for a bit while walking - i think i am going to stop by her apt. some time this week and visit her. its been awhile - and i figure its a good time for me to kidnapp her baby - they have had more then enough time together.
i was supposed to go to rock and roll heaven with mike and lynn yesterday but i ditched them. instead i went with julie, brad, and mike to evolution. i hate evolution but for some reason last night was entertaining. julie and brad were wonderful with mike - i think they really made him feel comftorable. i drank a lot - not to the point where i was drunk but i had a decent buzz. i saw one of the funniest things i think ive ever seen. there was this chick - who reminded me of peaches who cut my hair at fantastic sams when i was 7. she was just ultra trashy with her white half top - and black wide sailor like pants - fake tan - and mom hair cut - but she was dancing on this box the whole night. i think she was like one of those hired dancers - because she never got off the box. but these men would get up there with her and she would grind into them and do nasty stuff. it was funny because at one point she had her face in this bald mans(who looked like a child molester) crotch. and then she was grinding into this frat boy - who was touching her breasts. and then a half hour later she was being inbetween two black men. it was ridiculous but very fun to watch. mike was a good date - we had his arm around me a lot - in a good second date type of way - not in a over protective jerk way. and he kissed me on the cheek a few times - i swiftly returned each one of those kisses. later we went back to julie and brads apt. and hung out for a bit. they are great. brad was trashed and he kept on trying to get us to sleep over. but i didnt think it would be a good idea so i announced i should get going.
while leaving - mike walked me out to the car before getting into his - and we kissed - on the lips. it wasnt like a total mind blowing magical kiss - but it wasnt sloppy and awkward either. it was just there. it was just refreshing i guess to kiss someone new vs. an ex boyfriend. he is a good guy and im kind of looking foward to things with him.
im not sure if i called heather or she called me but i ended up going to the pasta grille to see heather. she was trashed. we went to hillview or hillside what ever its called for something to eat. she was loud. i called michael while she was in the bathroom - because he told me to call him later. i guess i woke him up - soo we talked maybe three seconds - then heather took the phone to talk to him - she actually took my phone - and left the restaurant to talk to him. which not only is shady - its grimey. but whatever it was nice to hang out with her i guess.
soo today - i went jogging at park off of north forest - it was raining a bit - but regardless it was nice. i dont know what it is - but i used to have this problem that whenever i went to jog id have to pee - well that is going away. so thats good. after i got home i worked out a bit more. then mike called me.
he invited me over to watch old school - because i had never seen it before. so i went over to his apt. after i ate dinner at my house. it was a nice apt. he just moved in about a month ago. he has nice furniture - he doesnt have a couch though. we watched the dvd in his bedroom on his bed. we kind of snuggled. the movie was sort of lame - but i didnt really expect to like it anyway. i felt really comftorable with him - and he wasnt pulling dumb boy moves at all like sticking his fingers into me or blowing into my ear like a fuck face either which was cool. we just layed there and watched the movie - his arm around me. we paused it twice to go have a ciggerette. its a cute little apt. building.
after the movie i lied and said i was tired - because i dont know. i really was tired - but i didnt want things to get strange. im trying to take my time with him because i have a feeling he is someone special - and i want to savor everything about him before i ruin it when i decide to fuck his brains out. because sex changes things sometimes. im taking my time with this guy because i want to know everything before i jump into anything serious. he isnt a funny guy - which sort of bothers me but intrigues me at the same time. he is cute though in nature which is sort of funny.
soo when i got home - i decided to call heather - heather had vinnies phone and vinnie had heathers phone. so when i called heathers phone vinnie picked up - and he asked me about a mike in san diego who called heather.
well suprise - mike in san diego - is michael is san diego - as in my ex husband. so needless to say i was very very angry. because not only do i not appreciate third parties in my marriage - i dont appreciate dishonesty, snooping, and not feeling like i can trust my friends. apparently heather gave michael her number last night while on my phone after running out of the restaurant like an idiot. i guess she forgot to tell me that. so i did what i thought right - i called michael - and asked him why he would call heather - he seemed suprised that i knew he called her - which is understandable - because obviously i wasnt supposed to know. then i called heather - and then i called michael on three way - to giveh im an opportunity to ask his question. but heather acting in true coward fashion hung up the phone - no doubt because she was busted in a shady act.
sooooo - here is what i have concluded - it sucks when you cant trust your friends - it sucks when your friends dont respect or for whatever cant accept major life decisions that you make. but i guess that a great thing about growing up - is that you get to choose your friends - you can surround yourself with people you care about who honestly care and respect you - for who you are and what youve done. and thats very important to me. and you dont have to put up with shady people who with hold information and obviously dont know you - or what you need and want to achieve happiness or some level of peace.
im going to say this plain and simple so there is no misunderstanding fuck off heather and stay out of my business.
besides what did you think - that you would save the day? that you would patch up my marriage? ehh i dont think so. there is nothing you can tell him about me that would sound good that isnt a lie. because the truth is - its almost as over with michael and i as it with you and me babe. ive had enough with your intrusive bullshit - because its soo consistant it makes me wonder if you are sincerely looking out for your friends best interests or you are on some sort of personal selfish mission.
i was supposed to go to rock and roll heaven with mike and lynn yesterday but i ditched them. instead i went with julie, brad, and mike to evolution. i hate evolution but for some reason last night was entertaining. julie and brad were wonderful with mike - i think they really made him feel comftorable. i drank a lot - not to the point where i was drunk but i had a decent buzz. i saw one of the funniest things i think ive ever seen. there was this chick - who reminded me of peaches who cut my hair at fantastic sams when i was 7. she was just ultra trashy with her white half top - and black wide sailor like pants - fake tan - and mom hair cut - but she was dancing on this box the whole night. i think she was like one of those hired dancers - because she never got off the box. but these men would get up there with her and she would grind into them and do nasty stuff. it was funny because at one point she had her face in this bald mans(who looked like a child molester) crotch. and then she was grinding into this frat boy - who was touching her breasts. and then a half hour later she was being inbetween two black men. it was ridiculous but very fun to watch. mike was a good date - we had his arm around me a lot - in a good second date type of way - not in a over protective jerk way. and he kissed me on the cheek a few times - i swiftly returned each one of those kisses. later we went back to julie and brads apt. and hung out for a bit. they are great. brad was trashed and he kept on trying to get us to sleep over. but i didnt think it would be a good idea so i announced i should get going.
while leaving - mike walked me out to the car before getting into his - and we kissed - on the lips. it wasnt like a total mind blowing magical kiss - but it wasnt sloppy and awkward either. it was just there. it was just refreshing i guess to kiss someone new vs. an ex boyfriend. he is a good guy and im kind of looking foward to things with him.
im not sure if i called heather or she called me but i ended up going to the pasta grille to see heather. she was trashed. we went to hillview or hillside what ever its called for something to eat. she was loud. i called michael while she was in the bathroom - because he told me to call him later. i guess i woke him up - soo we talked maybe three seconds - then heather took the phone to talk to him - she actually took my phone - and left the restaurant to talk to him. which not only is shady - its grimey. but whatever it was nice to hang out with her i guess.
soo today - i went jogging at park off of north forest - it was raining a bit - but regardless it was nice. i dont know what it is - but i used to have this problem that whenever i went to jog id have to pee - well that is going away. so thats good. after i got home i worked out a bit more. then mike called me.
he invited me over to watch old school - because i had never seen it before. so i went over to his apt. after i ate dinner at my house. it was a nice apt. he just moved in about a month ago. he has nice furniture - he doesnt have a couch though. we watched the dvd in his bedroom on his bed. we kind of snuggled. the movie was sort of lame - but i didnt really expect to like it anyway. i felt really comftorable with him - and he wasnt pulling dumb boy moves at all like sticking his fingers into me or blowing into my ear like a fuck face either which was cool. we just layed there and watched the movie - his arm around me. we paused it twice to go have a ciggerette. its a cute little apt. building.
after the movie i lied and said i was tired - because i dont know. i really was tired - but i didnt want things to get strange. im trying to take my time with him because i have a feeling he is someone special - and i want to savor everything about him before i ruin it when i decide to fuck his brains out. because sex changes things sometimes. im taking my time with this guy because i want to know everything before i jump into anything serious. he isnt a funny guy - which sort of bothers me but intrigues me at the same time. he is cute though in nature which is sort of funny.
soo when i got home - i decided to call heather - heather had vinnies phone and vinnie had heathers phone. so when i called heathers phone vinnie picked up - and he asked me about a mike in san diego who called heather.
well suprise - mike in san diego - is michael is san diego - as in my ex husband. so needless to say i was very very angry. because not only do i not appreciate third parties in my marriage - i dont appreciate dishonesty, snooping, and not feeling like i can trust my friends. apparently heather gave michael her number last night while on my phone after running out of the restaurant like an idiot. i guess she forgot to tell me that. so i did what i thought right - i called michael - and asked him why he would call heather - he seemed suprised that i knew he called her - which is understandable - because obviously i wasnt supposed to know. then i called heather - and then i called michael on three way - to giveh im an opportunity to ask his question. but heather acting in true coward fashion hung up the phone - no doubt because she was busted in a shady act.
sooooo - here is what i have concluded - it sucks when you cant trust your friends - it sucks when your friends dont respect or for whatever cant accept major life decisions that you make. but i guess that a great thing about growing up - is that you get to choose your friends - you can surround yourself with people you care about who honestly care and respect you - for who you are and what youve done. and thats very important to me. and you dont have to put up with shady people who with hold information and obviously dont know you - or what you need and want to achieve happiness or some level of peace.
im going to say this plain and simple so there is no misunderstanding fuck off heather and stay out of my business.
besides what did you think - that you would save the day? that you would patch up my marriage? ehh i dont think so. there is nothing you can tell him about me that would sound good that isnt a lie. because the truth is - its almost as over with michael and i as it with you and me babe. ive had enough with your intrusive bullshit - because its soo consistant it makes me wonder if you are sincerely looking out for your friends best interests or you are on some sort of personal selfish mission.