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went for long long walk this morning at forest lawn cemetary - i didnt get any sleep last night - and i wasnt close to tired so i waited till 8 to go for walk. im soo happy its fall. that sweet fall smell hasnt come around yet but im sure it will be here in a couple weeks. i wish i brought my camera with me to the cemetary. i was brave and walked near this one particular shrine thing that im always scared of. i went up the hill last spring to take pictures of it and a ghost or something approached me and i got in on film. i took one of the pictures back and left it for the ghost - and i hadnt been back to that section since. so today i was walking and i didnt go up the hill i was walking on the road and i could smell it again. that church incense smell. and so i knew he was there so i thought in my head give me a sign. and then out of nowhere this jogger runs by. thats not the type of sign i wanted though - i wanted the earth to open up and swallow a squirrel or something. i really want to bring my bike to the cemetary - but im really hesitant about it - it would be a real good workout because there are so many hills and everything - but maybe it would be disrespectful? ive seen other people with bikes there - but its mostly old men, walkers and joggers.
if i cant get to sleep in a couple hours im going to go back in the morning- as long as its not raining out.
last night hussein and ihad such an awful night. we fought worse then we have ever faught our whole friendship. he actually got physical with me. so i got out of the car - and called heather. i dont know im not going to get into details because they just make me look incredibly stupid and weak (which im really not).
but so yeah hussein called me this morning - we actually talked for a bit last night through msn messenger thing. but we were fighting then. so this morning before i went to the cemetary i stopped by to get my bowl - and we were still fighting. but we make each other laugh -its hard to stay mad at each other. blah. we hung out for a couple hours after my walk. i went over to his house and slept until 2 after we went out for an hour or so and patched things up. i hate when i wake up and people are staring at me.
i slept for like 10 hours today.
i still have pain in my side. it seemed to have disappeared a bit while i was walking. im soo worried about that. but im not talking about it. and im definetly not going back to the emergency room. i should call my doctor though - but im not going to do that either. so therefore i have no right to complain.
i went up to brauns to meet heather. i didnt drink at all. i had one mudslide and a coke. not in a drinking mood.
after i left there i went to tops to visit craig. craig is such a sweetie. he has soo much kindness to offer the right woman. i hate when my guy friends are lonley. except the thing is that craig isnt lonley he is just alone. i guess after the last girl he talked to he is better off.
so heather and vinnie broke up - i must say that i was suprisingly suprised with my reaction to that. what to say??? everything happens for a reason? i dont know. meh.. maybe the timing was off? not for me to say anyway.
i talked to michael today for a bit. i should be getting another check of 1200 dollars from him on wednesday. that will be really nice - im going to get my hair cut and highlighted and then buy some work clothes. just a couple solid colored skirts and pants. i think im going to return to temping - its such good money and it makes my resume look great - because i dont list the temp agency just the companies i worked for under it. because technically the companies are the one who hired me anyway - they choose my resume. i have great companies on my resume - community blue - corporate tops - remarketing services of america - jackson hewitt tax, ikon - etc...
after i save enough money i want to go to trucking school - just to say i did it. because its something ive always wanted to do. something about being on the road - driving for hours and hours - acknowledging other truckers with nods - and roadstops - is soo appealing to me. i think its the freedom element that makes it look so yummy to me.
its kind of chilly out - i think im going to do some laundry.
when i was younger my mom used to put my clothes in the dryer for me before school - so that when i woke up they would be all warm and cozy when i changed into them. i wish she would still do that. i do it every now and then in the winter - but its not same as climbing out of bed and right into warm clothes. now its like i have to run downstair put clothes in dryer - take shower - get out of shower - run back downstairs all cold and in towel then change in laundry room.
sometimes my phone lights up for no reason - its kind of creepy.
ughh heather ordered these pizza rolls at brauns and i dont think they agree with my stomach right now. because its crying.
a sad story my dad told me today. he went to let molly our dog out and he opened the door and she was just standing infront of the wall by the door staring straight. i guess that her eye sight is failing and she thought the wall was the door. sad. she seems soo miserable. semi blind depressed shitzus (spelling?) are bad for the family morale and i recommended to my father we should put her down.
ok its time to do laundry.
if i cant get to sleep in a couple hours im going to go back in the morning- as long as its not raining out.
last night hussein and ihad such an awful night. we fought worse then we have ever faught our whole friendship. he actually got physical with me. so i got out of the car - and called heather. i dont know im not going to get into details because they just make me look incredibly stupid and weak (which im really not).
but so yeah hussein called me this morning - we actually talked for a bit last night through msn messenger thing. but we were fighting then. so this morning before i went to the cemetary i stopped by to get my bowl - and we were still fighting. but we make each other laugh -its hard to stay mad at each other. blah. we hung out for a couple hours after my walk. i went over to his house and slept until 2 after we went out for an hour or so and patched things up. i hate when i wake up and people are staring at me.
i slept for like 10 hours today.
i still have pain in my side. it seemed to have disappeared a bit while i was walking. im soo worried about that. but im not talking about it. and im definetly not going back to the emergency room. i should call my doctor though - but im not going to do that either. so therefore i have no right to complain.
i went up to brauns to meet heather. i didnt drink at all. i had one mudslide and a coke. not in a drinking mood.
after i left there i went to tops to visit craig. craig is such a sweetie. he has soo much kindness to offer the right woman. i hate when my guy friends are lonley. except the thing is that craig isnt lonley he is just alone. i guess after the last girl he talked to he is better off.
so heather and vinnie broke up - i must say that i was suprisingly suprised with my reaction to that. what to say??? everything happens for a reason? i dont know. meh.. maybe the timing was off? not for me to say anyway.
i talked to michael today for a bit. i should be getting another check of 1200 dollars from him on wednesday. that will be really nice - im going to get my hair cut and highlighted and then buy some work clothes. just a couple solid colored skirts and pants. i think im going to return to temping - its such good money and it makes my resume look great - because i dont list the temp agency just the companies i worked for under it. because technically the companies are the one who hired me anyway - they choose my resume. i have great companies on my resume - community blue - corporate tops - remarketing services of america - jackson hewitt tax, ikon - etc...
after i save enough money i want to go to trucking school - just to say i did it. because its something ive always wanted to do. something about being on the road - driving for hours and hours - acknowledging other truckers with nods - and roadstops - is soo appealing to me. i think its the freedom element that makes it look so yummy to me.
its kind of chilly out - i think im going to do some laundry.
when i was younger my mom used to put my clothes in the dryer for me before school - so that when i woke up they would be all warm and cozy when i changed into them. i wish she would still do that. i do it every now and then in the winter - but its not same as climbing out of bed and right into warm clothes. now its like i have to run downstair put clothes in dryer - take shower - get out of shower - run back downstairs all cold and in towel then change in laundry room.
sometimes my phone lights up for no reason - its kind of creepy.
ughh heather ordered these pizza rolls at brauns and i dont think they agree with my stomach right now. because its crying.
a sad story my dad told me today. he went to let molly our dog out and he opened the door and she was just standing infront of the wall by the door staring straight. i guess that her eye sight is failing and she thought the wall was the door. sad. she seems soo miserable. semi blind depressed shitzus (spelling?) are bad for the family morale and i recommended to my father we should put her down.
ok its time to do laundry.