Change
People speak of change all the time. I want this to be different, I want that to be different. But really, what would you do if it were different? Do you honestly think that having different friends, different family, different lifestyle would make all problems go away? No they would still be there, just different. I used to wish that I could start over, make new friends, move away, leave this place. But why? To start over and realize that nothing is going to change that people are always going to be the same. You are going to have problem no matter with whom you are with. So why give up people who you love, people you are accustomed to, to only go through pain and problems alone? Here is the truth, the honest truth, good people are hard to come by these days. I don't mean that to be mean, but it is true. People can deceive you and make you believe they are true when in fact they are nothing more than a fake. It is hard to spot those kind of people. So when you have found people who are real and accept you, don't lose that because you think that having a different life will make things easier. It won't.
Today I realized how good my life is. Yeah I got the family problems, I got half the school hating me because I am bi, but I mean...fuck it. My life is great. I have no reason to complain nor will I. I was getting my book from Devin's locker today and she left me a note on the book and it was just a small, cute, lil note but it made me smile so big. Gosh I think I prolly annoyed Scotty by the way I was talking about it. You would think I just got a dozen roses or something. But I dunno it made me really happy. And I mean, I've got my friends. All of them. Even my whoring..er..meandering friend Alyssa. lol. Alright this post is sappy...I'm out kids.
Heather
I <3 Devin