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hey! tonights been freakin.. i dno.. sucky as hell.. im so sick of ky & tajh... kylie always wants to do somethin w/ him and i dont blame her they're together.. but when she comes to my house then wants to - i dno it bugs me, so when i tell her she can go over to his place she gets ticked and wants me to go.. she doesnt understand how i hate being the 3rd wheel.. do you have any idea how bad that sucks? and then me and my mom... its like Mom likes Ky more than me... Do you have any idea how that feels? You're own mother paying more attention to the daughters best friend than the daughter? mom did my nails tonight and.. i dno it was all a big argue.. i don't do this and i dont do that.. how's she expect me to learn anything when she doesnt teach me anything? i dunno.. and then that guy that i like... hah.. its such a game.. im so sick of wanting what i can't freaking have.. i dont even know what i have left to live for!!!! its like my whole family hates me.. they don't pay any attention to me until something gets said with me hating my life.. then.. i dno - they just complain to me so much.. im so sick of this life.. everyone thinks its so great... its not... the guy... i dno.. he doesn't know... that i like him... and how it looks now.. he'll never know... i hate it... everyone can be happy.. and then there's me... i want my dad back... i wanna know what its like with him here... i want my birth father in front of me so i can say DADDY I LOVE YOU!! i wanna have that bond... GOD DAMNET...
i fucking hate this.
i fucking hate this.