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well today was the first day that ive been really depressed in a while..after school today i seen something that triggered it..it made me realize that i get stepped on alot..and i wish there was a way i could get away from everyone..but unfortunately i havent found a way yet..this thought is brought up alot at school because it is soo overpopulated and there are alot of people there that i just wish would die..no one see's that i get stepped on ..only the one that crushed me see's and he still continues to do it!..the only way i can stand up for myself is to step on other people..and no matter how hard i try..i cant do that...thats just not me..and i dont bring this on myself..i try to avoid it ..but it always comes after me..i wish i could put belief in this changing!?..but im an atheist..if i believed that ..then i would be praying right now..i dunno if things will pay off in the end?!..im not a positive person and when situations like this come up..there isnt alot of faith..i guess im just saying that i wanna be able to say that there is something else out there..i wish i could say that my day will come..but this is life and life is not anywhere near being "fair"..i have learned alot from being like this..im going to shut out everything..try to block it out..try to prevent this!..so i'll just sit here and wait ..keep to myself..and try to relate with the only person i can..and hope that ..this time it doesnt backfire