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I don't get you. At all. Every move you have made
has pushed me closer to the edge, and finally youuu
made me snap. I can;t take you anymore. Ever again.
Seems like everone has been depressed lately. This
year has fascinated me. I can;t say that I;m not one
of those people, that would be lieing. I feel like
I;m a totally different person, and I really don't
like it. At all. The fire scared and will continue
to scare me. So many people I deeply care about are
all being evacuated and I'm scared out of my mind. I
got over myself today, shook up a few people, re-made
a few friendships. I can't help but wish life was a
little bit happier, but I'm not going to be a complainer
and I'm just going to smack on one of those famous
fake smiles we all know to well. I miss my best friends
a lot. I feel a distance between some. Jade, Laurel,
Nicole, Hayley, Jennifer. They haven't left my side
EVER but I feel for some reason I seem to be pushing them
away when I need them most. I hate crushes. A lot. They
got there name for good reasons. I missed you a lot.
Like a lot. School is hard, I didn't expect my sophomore
year to be like this. I hate curve balls. They always
catch me off guard, shake me up a little, and throw
me off course. I hate being off course. I hate change.
I miss Jessica Fried a lot. I feel almost like I've
betrayed a friendship with you, when all you have done is
cared. Wow, I need to get over myself. Shutting up,
and I'll quit complaining for all those who actually
listened to me rant about how "horrible" my life is.