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I actually hate school!! and I hate being a teenager...I swear we have more drama than ANYONE!!
Have you ever looked at someone in this light and have seen them as this perfect person to you and then one day your whole view changes...
Lately ive been so worried about Jason because ive just noticed that he is not the same person that he used to be...I dont know who he is anymore. Lastnight out of nowhere he tells me he doesnt care if we are friends anymore. I felt my heart stop for a second. He was my best friend and I feel like it was all a waste. I found myself continuously being at his beckon call and recently decided to stop that but I didnt think it would come to this.
I spoke to Shana lastnight and we were both just confizzled! I also spoke to Gerardo who made me feel alot better!!
He made me see that although at one time Jason was a good friend clearly we werent that close if he could just say this kind of thing out of nowhere...
Anyway...I cant explain how happy ive been lately with Shana and Jon...they are the best friends I could ever ask for...we really are a family and I love them...although they may not know it they really helped me get over Jeff and realize I do have people that care about me.
Shana- after my break up with Jeff I felt a little like you have been feeling...please dont even let the thought run in your head about not being able to find someone else...im so happy I met Gerardo and not because I think ill be with him for any amount of time cuz who knows wut will come from this but he made me realize that Jeff was never someone that I wanted for my future and you will see the same thing. We made our lists and we have to stick to them!!! I love you girly and you have to know the biggest mistake I made was shutting out my girls and the people who really cared!
Jon- you have changed...I didnt want to really believe it or see it but now I have. You are suuch a great guy and although we had our many problems in the past I know I cant count on you still. I know I told you that I think you should go back to your old ways with girls but I lied...now that ive seen how much you can really care about someone you cant let that go away. You have so much to give and such a big heart and any girl would be soo lucky to have you! I cant say it enough how happy I am that we have become close again...
*You both come first...I love you guys...you really are like family to me.
Thanks for being there whenever I needed you!
So on a totally different subject...My birthday is coming up and im doing some major planning!! I need to get in touch with some peoples tho...
Anyway...im off to watch the morning announcements woo woo lol...then goin to work out hardcore in weight training!
**Jon- good luck with your interview today**
Have you ever looked at someone in this light and have seen them as this perfect person to you and then one day your whole view changes...
Lately ive been so worried about Jason because ive just noticed that he is not the same person that he used to be...I dont know who he is anymore. Lastnight out of nowhere he tells me he doesnt care if we are friends anymore. I felt my heart stop for a second. He was my best friend and I feel like it was all a waste. I found myself continuously being at his beckon call and recently decided to stop that but I didnt think it would come to this.
I spoke to Shana lastnight and we were both just confizzled! I also spoke to Gerardo who made me feel alot better!!
He made me see that although at one time Jason was a good friend clearly we werent that close if he could just say this kind of thing out of nowhere...
Anyway...I cant explain how happy ive been lately with Shana and Jon...they are the best friends I could ever ask for...we really are a family and I love them...although they may not know it they really helped me get over Jeff and realize I do have people that care about me.
Shana- after my break up with Jeff I felt a little like you have been feeling...please dont even let the thought run in your head about not being able to find someone else...im so happy I met Gerardo and not because I think ill be with him for any amount of time cuz who knows wut will come from this but he made me realize that Jeff was never someone that I wanted for my future and you will see the same thing. We made our lists and we have to stick to them!!! I love you girly and you have to know the biggest mistake I made was shutting out my girls and the people who really cared!
Jon- you have changed...I didnt want to really believe it or see it but now I have. You are suuch a great guy and although we had our many problems in the past I know I cant count on you still. I know I told you that I think you should go back to your old ways with girls but I lied...now that ive seen how much you can really care about someone you cant let that go away. You have so much to give and such a big heart and any girl would be soo lucky to have you! I cant say it enough how happy I am that we have become close again...
*You both come first...I love you guys...you really are like family to me.
Thanks for being there whenever I needed you!
So on a totally different subject...My birthday is coming up and im doing some major planning!! I need to get in touch with some peoples tho...
Anyway...im off to watch the morning announcements woo woo lol...then goin to work out hardcore in weight training!
**Jon- good luck with your interview today**