Apr 29, 2005 00:01
i want to be there for everybody. and i hate the feeling of failure. I've come to realize that so who cares what you wear, or what happened in your past... This moment is never going to be here again. And life is slowly going by. the Greatest years of our lives are soon to be over, and i don't want all the regret. I wish I could not be such a disappointment sometimes. To everyone.. my friends and my parents. I try to be there and to do what I can, and i'm sorry for not calling you back all the time, sometimes I just get lost in all the confusion. I can't stand to see that look of disappointment on your face, and think that you're feeling that way because of me. I'm trying. please acknowledge my efforts.
i'm sick of putting things off. things that i want to achieve and get done, that just get simly pushed to the side to be bothered with at a later date. i wish that i payed more attention to all of my friends, and learned how to manage my time with them better. i wish that i could always do all of my homework, and get to tumbling every week. I wish that I could not be so caught up on all the drama and gossip, and for once just go sit in a park and appreciate everything that is there. I want to go on a road trip, and see tons of beautiful places. And I'd like to go to Europe again, with people that i love being around. I want to go to Texas. And see Andrew, and Misa.. I miss them. Everytime I talk to them I just get so happy and excited, i love listening to them be so happy.. i know i sound crazy. But if I could go one place in the world, it would be in the road, right in the middle of their two houses that way i could spend time with both of them. I'm hoping that this summer, i'll have enough money to go down there for a week.
Very relieved to just type.
i love you. i can't explain it.
where is your positive attitude?
i love cheerleading. yay for open gyms and tumbling!! NHS ceremony next Thursday. I got a Job at Penn Station!!!! YaY for not being broke all the time anymore. *hooray for shopping*