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been thinking a lot today.. so if you actually read it, here's some thoughts on random things =]
i miss cheerleading. i feel like such a lazy ass everyday. and i miss the really close friendships that you have when you're at cheer. Its not that i don't still talk to everyone, but it's more or less just a hi in the hall instead of acting stupid together at practice. and i miss Ginners and working out, and just everything about it. I can't wait for tumbling this week and for open gyms to start! .... weird.. me being excited for tumble?! haha.
so my birthday is a week from today. My Sweet 16. I am really excited, so much more freedom! But it's kind of scary. It seems like life is going by so fast. Wasn't it just yesterday that i was so scared to go to middle school and have more than one teacher? And here i am turning 16, being able to go out on the road and risk my life as well as others. It's a lot of responsibility. Not that i don't believe that i'm not a good driver, but there are always other people out there not paying attention. So i guess for as incredibly excited and anxious as i am for next Saturday to get here, a part of me still wishes i was little.. and that life wasn't as complicated.
i really take you for granted. through any thing that happens in my life, you stand there and listen. You give me advice and get me through the craziest of lifes situations. You're there to notice the little things in life with me and to remind me to not always be so serious.. that it's okay to relax and have fun! Shannon Power i love you! I know that i don't tell you enough how thankful i am to have you as my locker partner *lol* and as my best friend!
you're that person in my life right now who i cannot live without. every second of every day you are there to make me laugh. I can't explain the wonderful times we've had together. i will admit, sometimes i get jealous. not of anything in particular, or of anyone. but sometimes little things will make me jealous, and i stop, and think and i realize that i'm crazy for ever being jealous. I have you.. not them. You are there for me in ways that some people can only dream of. It's like those fairytales... when people dream of that guy who will do anything and be so perfect, except for me, it's not a dream. this is my actual life. I never thought i'd be so comfortable around someone. Not only can i be myself around you when we're hanging out, but i don't feel self-concious around you, or feel like an idiot when i say something stupid. You just laugh when i do something stupid, and it seems okay =] i really haven't ever thanked you for doing the things you do for me. From giving me a hug, or talking to me for 5 hours into the wee hours of the morning to make sure i was okay, to spending time with me, and most of all, for making me feel so special. So thanks Richard =] <3<3
to chris: thanks for being here for me. since 6th grade. It's weird, when i sit in the car and you're driving. You're not supposed to drive, you're still 11 years old to me! I love you a lot hun and i will be here for you no matter what. If we are to ever fall out of touch and not speak, i will still be here the second you need a thing. ..But that won't ever happen! You've grown up a lot, and it's crazy to think about the things to come in life! I hope we're always best friends =]
and to all of my other friends who are always there- kaitlyn, matt, josh, jp, hillary... you guys all know who you are. i love you and appreciate every thing that you have done for me!
somewhat long. i apologize. but felt the need to just type about people that i love, just in case they didn't know already that i loved them.