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i'm really hating my mom right now. she's being a complete bitch for no fucking reason at all. i know i'm fat, i know i shouldn't eat anything. but you know what? i get hungry, and mothers are fucking supposed to feed their kids when there hungry. i would understand if i just ate a whole big dinner and then i'm like "omg, i'm hungry. let me have some pie" or something but it's not like that at all. she gave me a cup of rice. not like, a cup as you know.. like rice in a cup. it was absolutly nothing and when i say "i'm hungry" and she just looks at me and says "well, i don't know" meanwhile she stuffs food in her fiances face. he's like "karen! i'm full! i don't want any more! give it to angelica" and she just gives it to him anyway because she doesn't want me to eat.
fuck her. she doesn't want me to eat? then i won't.
james was a witness too all this and i was explaining it a little more detailed outside in my hallway when he was leaving and he put his forehead to mine and just looked down and me and said "listen to me right now. you are not fat. you are perfect. she doesn't know what she's talking about." i love him so much. and although i understand he doesn't think i'm fat, i know that i really am. whatever.
on a brighter note, well three, at the concert we fucking did amazing. people were clapping so loud, screaming, and standing up for us. i love that feeling when everyone's looking at you and cheering. it's the best feeling in the world :]
the second good thing about today was my uggs came in the mail :] they're so comfortable! i put them on right when i took them out of the box [at like 5ish] and i just took them off like, 5 minutes ago lol.
and the third is that i got an 88% on my us history test and i'm actually really proud of myself. it feels good to get good grades.
so i know no one really reads this but i'm okay with that. it's good to write stuff somewhere and i always wanted to keep somewhat of a diary but i'm always too lazy to literarily write it down on paper. maybe i'll start printing these entries out. sounds like a good idea..
alright, i'm done.
fuck her. she doesn't want me to eat? then i won't.
james was a witness too all this and i was explaining it a little more detailed outside in my hallway when he was leaving and he put his forehead to mine and just looked down and me and said "listen to me right now. you are not fat. you are perfect. she doesn't know what she's talking about." i love him so much. and although i understand he doesn't think i'm fat, i know that i really am. whatever.
on a brighter note, well three, at the concert we fucking did amazing. people were clapping so loud, screaming, and standing up for us. i love that feeling when everyone's looking at you and cheering. it's the best feeling in the world :]
the second good thing about today was my uggs came in the mail :] they're so comfortable! i put them on right when i took them out of the box [at like 5ish] and i just took them off like, 5 minutes ago lol.
and the third is that i got an 88% on my us history test and i'm actually really proud of myself. it feels good to get good grades.
so i know no one really reads this but i'm okay with that. it's good to write stuff somewhere and i always wanted to keep somewhat of a diary but i'm always too lazy to literarily write it down on paper. maybe i'll start printing these entries out. sounds like a good idea..
alright, i'm done.