What the hell..
I dont know what the hell is going on anymore..my life is litterally falling apart before me and there is not a damn thing i can do..
Today, my mom took me to 'The Cove' to get me a new skateboard, and on the way there she stated saying stuff like "Don't be alamed if your dad and I split up" and im just like WTF?! And she just goes on about how she feels like shes alone and my dad doesnt let her do anything...which i understand, because he doesnt..
I dont know what to do, i could care less if they split up or not...but here i am about to bust into tears, what the hell is wrong with me?! I really dont know what to do, i mean, i really dont, i wish i could go somewhere untill all this crap passes by, but i have no where to go..unless i run away, but i dont feel like running from the cops..
Ugh, im just thinking of soo much crap right now, and thinking is bringing back horrible memories of my childhood, some memories no one knows, and i dont think im ready to get them out in the open just yet..or ever. But im dying to tell someone..but i dont trust anyone, and i sure as hell am not talking to a shrink...no way, i hate them, and they dont do anything anyways but piss me off even more..
I really need to get things off of my chest....badly. But i know if i say something, my family will fall apart..even more than it is..
Through early morning fog I see
Visions of the things to be
The pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see...
That suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please
The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
So this is all I have to say
Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please
The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...
Suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please
A brave man once requested me
To answer questions that are key
Is it to be or not to be
And I replied 'oh why ask me?'
And suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
And I can take or leave it if I please
...and you can do the same thing if you please