this keeps getting harder and....it just keeps getting worse
i couldnt kiss you in this moment if you fell in front of my face... and i wouldnt try to reach you if you were farther than an arms width. if one was never enough from the beginning who's to say that any where down the road that will change. for all the faith in the world that i could put into your ideals and the promises that nobody seems to be making... your mysterious qualities are no longer mysterious just painful. how can you be so vague? with all the troubles and tribulations that come with a lack of labels on the bottles that are continuously building up... there is an added echo of miscommunication coming from your end of the phone line and regardless of the breathing that can still be heard, i find that there is more comfort in a constant dial tone. when paths do cross and i look into the eyes of a person who is a stranger but feels five times too familiar, i am left with nothing better to do than stand weak and just feel. even though the little girl is bright eyed and smiling now doesnt mean that tears dont form the instant you close your eyes. is it so hard for one person to just be enough for someone... is it too much to ask to just mean more than this... maybe all the signs are facing the wrong way and i am stuck misjudging the flow of traffic and every warning sign, but what did you expect when there is no one there to point me in any other clear direction.
i'm not afraid of my dreams, i just dont want to dream alone...
come dream with me.
i can already tell this is going to be a shitty week.
...some things are worth remembering and smiling about.